* Krazy Becky *

hoping for miracle

2011-05-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

May is such a quiet month.. Just concentrate of earning more bucks n stop myself from thinking too much. My medical reports was superb but doctor say my body was fatigue and need to rest more if i want myself to be health in the long run. So i decided to cut down my classes by increasing my pay. It might sound a bit funny but i think is a way i save my body n wallet at the same time.Hopefully some bosses understand my situation

Seem i'm cool down more every months bcoz i keep telling myself things will be over soon but i know it will never end, Why am i still holding on? i really donno how to answer this question but everything look so wrong sometimes.I feel neglected, the way i being pamper is different, most of the things is treated a different way then it was. I think i should just keep myself quiet, cool, happy, and flow with everything. Waiting for miracle to happen is like waiting for someone dead n come back alive. Never had such a worst feeling before. I feel like give up my crews, myself n walk away to have a better life.This is what happen last time to Racken Force. I don't wish history to be repeated. I don't wanna feel regret again. What i can do is wait for the Miracle.
But however waiting has the time limit, when it strike mean is over. So i hope before it strike miracle will hit if not i'm speechless to say it now.

Life goes on. I just keep telling myself *enough of everything* is time to pamper myself.
I start shopping, massage, hair do, manicure. really feel like a princess or can be call Enjoyment as a lady. Next i wan to buy heel, nice dress, skirt, or blouse. Make myself pretty, sexy. Next will go nite out party, dating, woohoo. It sound so naughty n nasty but i like. I should be enjoying my life for now. Yohoo!! can't wait to make myself pretty n happy :)

Hope everything goes well n miracle happen.. *PRAY*

April end with ;(

2011-05-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

Is April the holiday, the birthday, the celebration that i been waiting and waiting.. It started with a happy, holiday heart when the calendar strike 22 april 12am to 23th april. the uneasy feeling strike me again. I keep feeling there is something happen but i keep telling myself is not true. But as usual i will check in whatever way to find out the truth..then i put it aside bcoz it wasn't strong enough to prove the lies.

On 24th April is the day i meet him and ready for our holiday. I prepare the present n a little surprise when he back to SG. I reach SG at 4.30pm then i walk around n eat my lunch.Prepare for class at 6.30pm my adek teaching. At 6.10pm my phone rang, he call me say he is at airport. My heart was hit by an arrow n burst. I turn speechless n lost. I break my promise with adek,arjuna n others saying got to go. I went to the airport n saw him sitting outside with t-shirt is was so hurtful. I can;t even smile n give him a big hugs or kiss. I feel so stupid.But i maintain n went home with him book air ticket,hotel room n pack everything for our holiday in Taiwan.1st holiday together going so far.Excited but feeling got mix up.

On 25th morning we went to airport at 5am. So freaking early but we are like half awake so we sleep all the way in the flight after we ate our breakfast.I'm putting the things aside n enjoy myself with him. He pamper me n take care of me bcoz the seat is not really comfortable.so i sleep on his thigh.feel so good n i slept all the way :) Reach taiwan at 12pm. then we get our stuff n check in to the hotel. The hotel is so nice n clean good choice. After that we went for lunch then sleep.HAHA
after the sleep, we hit to SHIHLIN at 8.30pm then we eat,shop,n drink XD.
He bought me a air troupe just newly arrive.He really pamper me. I really kiss n hugs him so tight. Feel the holiday is so superb.

26th we went to XiMEN DING for shopping. We took bus, train. DIE DIE no taxi trying to save money n shop more. XD We walk almost the whole place n found many many cool stuff. He like it but the price is EX especially the stuff he like.. never seem to get anything from XIMENDING then we went to find the NEw Era cap as VOn told me. hahaha found the shop using iphone map. but he don like cap so we went back hotel after tat. LAter at 8.40pm we went to shihlin again for food n shopping. This time we plan to play 5-10 so we bought some soft drink to mix with liqour. Is such a bad nite i lost most of the game n i drunk. I start making so much noise n say out alots of foul words. i can't control my emotion after i found something. HAIZZZ bad nite

27th wake up with headache n migraine. Hate myself for drinking so much n i really can't remember what did i say to him. i took panadol then watch tv til he wake up. Then we went out to miramar wheels n walk around n have lunch.I was putting the sadness aside n enjoy myself. Then we took alots of picture walking around the shopping mall. But seem taiwan shopping mall very quite n boring. At 7pm we decide to go Shihlin again for dinner. This time Q for the fried chicken then crab, then pearl drink, fruits, and etc.HAHA FAT!! i go crazy shopping for lil gift for my girls. After everything we were too tired n go back hotel. Back hotel my emotion start again.. arghhh!!! i hate myself.. This time no drink or anything just normal talk. I'm happy he tell me so much n decide to stay positive.Then i fall asleep after listening to everything.

28th we wake up late.Around 3pm we check out n went for lunch before taxi uncle pick us up to airport. We were very quiet today bcoz i seem lost of talking interest.But he remain cool n make me happy.After lunch, we go airport n bad news is flight delay one hour. AHH!!! then we went burger king. Here we eat n laugh. then suddenly me again emotion lose control n small fight. He stop the conversation n stop the fight. I remain quiet til we get ourself check in n board in. I think i was thinking too much til my head migraine. After we get our boarding ticket i lose balance n giddy n i fall to him. He got to take care of me again althought after the fight.I really donno what type of feeling should i have. Waited til like 9plus only the flight board when the time supposed to be 7.45pm. Haizxz. Feel not well n he still willing to take care of me after i mess up the holiday. buy food n drink for me, blanket me n kiss me on the forehead. TELL ME WHAT AM I DOING?

29th reach airport at 2am. Drive home n unpack is already 3plus. Tired doh!! going back kl later at 1pm. Really like marathon holiday.The next day i just feel asking him to rest at SG then follow me back KL rehearsal. But he willing to do as what we plan. Back to kl at 4.30pm then i rehearse with my girls. After tat we went for dinner at McD then movie at TGV watching THOR.. NICe movie n we enjoy our nite.I did bring up the topic n he say back home first.so i silence again.

30th wake up at 8am n go 1u for show rehearsal. I pity myself so do him. I turn speechless sometimes donno what am i thinking about. And what is he doing n thinking about. :(
Showtime at 1.15pm end 1.40pm then we have a drink at Kluang Station with von, yvonne, bobby, astro ppl. At 2.40pm we left n hit back to Singapore. The traffic was bad that take us 5hours to reach Singapore. i start again n he end it again. We went staright to town for dinner with his friends then recognize studio for dance session bcoz cinema seem to be full.. So we left studio around 11.40pm. I feel so not happy bcoz i got the feeling again. back home i shower n rest don even feel like doing anything stupid again. But my emotion hit me again n i send him a sms with his reply i put myself in silence. I was planning to leave n drive back in the middle of the night but is really crazy if i do so. Then i tell myself sleep n wake up with a better mind.

1st May the day i hate it so much due to something. But i remain silence so tat i don't blow any bad words again. I was quite low emotion n reaction. He trying to make everything fine. We went out for breakfast then back home. he pack his stuff i play iphone game,online. Then later we watch some dance video together.Clock hitz 4pm then out we go to airport as he is working on LAbour day. I drive back kl after he report in n send me to the car. I start my journey back KL again alone. I hate it when i'm alone bcoz my mind will start all the rubbish thinking again. I really need someone to tell me what i'm doing is rite or wrong. I admit whatever sh*T i did to find out the truth is wrong. I"m sorry. i really can;t control my emotion. Staying cool is not the way anymore.
i just need u to stop lying to me n hurt me.

2nd may I'm writing this blog just to make myself not to think so much of him.But it doesn't really help as i will just miss him n think about him everynite n day. i'm no longer the happy go lucky girl, crazy crazy everyday, smile n talk non-stop. hyperactive, why isst my age or i just change. Now i feel myself is more serious, tired, overwork, stress, worry. What happen to me? why am i facing so much stress? Am i putting all the stress to me? Can i runaway from it?
I need to plan a holiday.A good one no more wack,sh*t moment.

END

i wish

2011-04-01T10:15:00.004+08:00

Day by day it pass so fast... i'm still can't really move on with things that happen to me. i wish i can wake up from this nightmare that haunt me for so many months. People do say scorpio are strong but too strong in so many things end up i get hurt badly without anyone feeling the pain with me. I hope i can sting like a scorpio n cold blooded like others. But too bad i'm feeling myself changing in so many ways. Getting softer n weaker. I hate this feeling of not being strong, maybe i really need a getaway so i can think what do i really wanna achieve from all this shits i been going through. Hmmm should plan one... :) I wish i can be more cruel n bad ass girl like last time. hahaha but is good to be good girl now but too good also not good..XD sound funny but just feel tired after a long day outside everyday n just wanna back home n rest on my bed everynight. I wish i can hang out with friends n have some chatting session with friends but just tired for me after a long day.When people look at me they ask *why u so tired as u only teach dance only* .. haizz yes i'm a dance teacher but i teach school in the morning, afternoon just a few hours rest then nite classes again. The tiredness is hard to describe as i got my job, my crew, my bf, my family,and myself to handle. I like to plan things in advance bcoz i hate last minutes bcoz it might cos u a bomb in cash form or problems. But i plan too much sometimes till i have stress.. haha *WHAT A LIFE I CHOOSE TO HAVE* Who can help me with this? or who can give me a peace of minds? i think some should kn0w the answer but i think u just donno.. :X i'm always being so strong n wrap everything to be done by myself but is not really good, it hurt me physically n mentally but is just my character. I love to be busy n work. i'm a workacholic to be say. Bcoz work can make me not to think so much n earn a respect for being so capable. ya i earn my respect from so many people bcoz i do my part as a teacher, or student or worker.I know some people don't like the way i talk but is me being straight forward n no hidden feeling. sorry la.. IS JUST ME.. I reallly need a good break n rest.. so i can think what are the things that i should do n shouldn't do.i fall in a big trap that lock up my brain from thinking straight or rasional. as my few months i been going through very down moment n emotional. Still wishing for it to over in a blink of eyes.But i know is impossible. SO PLEASE BECKY STOP THINKING. bcoz the more u think about how the process of it u hurt urself more n more.. I need to keep telling myself to be positive everyday. reading quotes to make myself feel better in my daily life. U will never feel how i feel bcoz u are not in my shoes. but world is round n i believe in this karma words * WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND* be careful with your action n thought **** I wish for it to end, and myself to be strong.

STOP IT!

2011-03-24T01:11:00.002+08:00

i have to go through it again n again. But is still the same. Made the decision a few times n fail to walk away without turning back. I turn back because i'm soft hearted or love?? i really donno. LOST again..

I made a decision not on U but to myself bcoz everytime i made a decision on u i will always fail.
i decided to make this decision on myself. I donno what is your choice is all up to u now. I don't want to put myself down on this emotion thingy n crazy fight with u again n again due to a bloody *****!! so much i go through, i believe i can go through this one without fear anymore in time to come.

Think back all the words, promises is just words not action. That why my quote is ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.. that's why when i say i can mean i will do it. But i didn't keep my words when the first few fight bcoz my heart is not letting go. But is a bit broken to the level need plaster to paste it back.. And i'm pasting it back with glu so i can be hard hearted in time to come.Hopefully i can do it if the results is not going to be nice.

Fighting with u is not fun. Talking all those things i do feel myself irritating n annoying. reacting like crazy girl is nuts. Checking ur stuff is not my job. Being a pyschotic is sooooo not me.. All this is just nonsense when someone is HITS with a big knife to the heart or mind. I'm the one got hit.I never believe myself doing all those things to u. Because u are the first one i react like this. I was cooler n heartless last time. Walking away without even looking back. Now is like haizzz...

i can't do anything else anymore. bcoz i feel the more i do is just pushing myself to the end. I'm really really tired to react like some crazy nuts. doing little little things behind u. *SLAP SLAP*
STOP IT. and go on with your daily life. DANCE TILL U DROP. YES I WILL
dance till i die should be the correct words for me. hahahaha

Soon will be going to the hospital n hang antibiotic..:D too skinny, not eating much, no appetite, dance too much, muscle n body all start to pain.. not good at all.. see how long i can tahan la..

What else :X

2011-03-17T00:50:00.003+08:00

I'm still in a bad emotion level..thought i have recover and a better life to go on as i get my new car, everything seem smooth but i never expected there is still hurtful stuff that will pull me down to earth ground. Haizz. Why must i go through it again n again. I so cannot tahan with all this already really give up this time.

It was march 6 i drive down to look for u and spend few days with u. But end up i found out something that hurt me to the max. I never know u are still lying to me bcoz of her. I have go through all this again n again this time i GIVE UP. I really feel like leaving this dem place without looking back., but there is too much memory and i feel very angry just to walk away bcoz i have put so much effort n so do u. BUT WHY DO U STILL DO THIS?????
I so hope that u were in my shoes to go through all this f*cking feeling and still need to put a smile when working n pretend myself is alright. I calm myself down n talk n talk n talk. but i just can't stop thinking about it. So i drink n drink and talk all out. i really donno how u feel n what u think about me? U are just good by keeping quiet and just say the same things since the first time we talk about this. I donno how to trust u or even believe what u say.
I know so much n i still can remain so cool n calm. I so wanted to ask advise from elderly ppl but i feel it will turn out to be the worst impression n bad reputation to u. I'm still so lost ..

Why? Why? what have i did in my past live to deserve all this shits? because i runaway from marriage? tell me why.. is my love life got to be like that.. if really tell me in my dream or face to face that i'm born to be *alone ranger* . then i will be and walk away from everything. Just put my career n family. So confusing and feel myself overwork for the future.
I"M FUCKING TIRED... with everything but i still carry on bcoz is my choice, but i'm starting to tell myself to let go if things doesn't really working out.
Staying n trying is not the way.
Patience n Toleration is with limit.
When u over the limit i will explode and THE END!!

this is the first time i ever wrote something with bad words. I'm always cool n think about others but does others think about me? so what the hell.. My Blog this is how i talk out my problems. no where else i can talk like this bcoz i'm a teacher to so many kids, teenagers, aunty, ladies. People will say what teacher is this talking all the bad words. Control Control but not here in my blog. Been controlling myself for the past few years . ENOUGH!!
i want to be sexy, pretty, girl girl,
i want more shoes, n high heel,
i want skirt n dress.
Slim BODY.. don dem care about anything. Love myself will rewards mylife better.

Sorry i being rude but i like it.. FMLL..

BUSY..like a bee

2011-03-04T02:12:00.002+08:00

March 4th and my schedule is almost fully written on my book. I feel myself abit like robot n overwork. I like it but is a bit insane looking at my schedule. I find it really over n is getting more class as day pass. People call me for classes, i feel happy but at the same time i feel tired n stress. Yes money n finacial will be better but does my health going to improve or is going to get worst.I really don dare to think about @@. I still miss competing with Soul Krazy at least everyday get to laugh out loud, sometimes emo emo a bit here n there, scream n shout in the studio like nobody business, eat n play althought is at critical moment of the competition. But i feel that is the time i'm missing now. SIGH!!

I really feel so tired with all my classes but that's my job. I wan to get back on track with dancce competition and improve more in dancing. How do shouldi go back? Feel a bit bored keep dancing the old dance for performance and shows. I wan to do something sexy,cool, fresh routine but i just don't have the time to edit music n find idea for it. :( am i lazy or just busy?
I need to push myself to the end so i will start moving forward. When should i start training for upcoming comp? or still stick to the old way last minutes RUSH LIKE HELL!!@#$% better not for this time. *SLAP* i better do it now so SK can really keep up with the dance routine by the time of competition. HMM.. JUST DO IT!! like nike say.. hahaha

I always find myself having this problem with my group. When problem occurs i will keep quiet n observe, but just dowan to say it out.Will the problem become a bigger problem after a while or it will gone like wind. Will the problem solve by itself or do i need to come up to a stage to say out bad words n make a bad decisions. I JUST HATE IT. why every group must have all this problems? i has to overcome all this problem again n again. Just feel tired :X i hope to find the guts one days n say it out!! being a solo is easy as a click of finger but being in a group is putting 2hand together to clap. i got 2pairs of hand clapping with me but can the clap be forever or just for a moment. Hope for the best..

My busy life is getting sosososo sucky bcoz i'm weak. I need to eat proper food at proper time to keep me going. my sick n weak body is bringing me down to earth. DEM!! hate it so much.
I need to buckle up n start my engine for SK practice. I think time is up n SK need to start moving before everyone of us pancit tayar n become spare tayar..XD slimming session need to start n dance dance dance.. krazy dance on the way..Pluck grass go away.. YES DO IT!!

WORK HARD! DANCE HARD! PLAY HARDER!

Story 1

2011-02-28T14:09:00.002+08:00

After CNY and Valentine's over, everything seem to be so quiet..I'm no longer stress about choreography, music editing,dateline of music n everything. I'm back to teaching dance classes everyday till i find myself over work with classes everyday. it make me so tired n start thinking again. Life is just about working, earning money n save it up or is about to enjoy ur life while u still can? i been thinking what do i wan to achieve in life? Have i achieve whatever i dream of?

I'm a scorpio. I'm the most scary zodiac in the horoscope circle. WHY? I can remember simple things, i hold grudges, i take longer time to move on, but i'm loyal in love, patience, hardworking, determine. SO call i'm crazy n hyperactive in work. DREAM* i have achieve it with the guts of letting go my marriage at the age of 23 to be a mrs.housewife with luxury life. I have become a lil star in dance circle for hip hop n line dance. i have travel to many places n explore myself to so many dance scenes. I'm satisfied :) I'm now a dance instructor teaching in so many dance studio with lots of students n love from them.SOUL Krazy my group of girls that i never thought it will grow this far. People always say girls is complicated n hard to handle, for me is how you find a way to compromise each other, tolerate, n the passion in DANCE as a group. When there is a will there is always a way. So i believe in each of them to give me their heart to work the way up. not to be the best but to be proud I'm SOul Krazy.

I'm always a loser in my relationship, think back about the past relationship i never really put much attention or heart into it..MIGHT be because i was busy fighting for my dreams n career, too hardworking till forget there is someone who love me n need my love n cares.. When i share my past story, ppl find me is scary n bad girl..hahaha i really never realize about it.
People see me now is such a good girl n hardworking, maybe the past does taught me alots of human characters, life n thoughts.. I realize loving someone is easy but to forget someone is always hard. and found out that girls nowadays is so daring n will do whatever to get the man's they like or love. I just feel so tired. I will say all i want now is love n care by my love one.
Guys always say girls love guy with good looking,money, power,cars,house. As for me if u got money i'm lucky, if u handsome i'm proud, if u are rich i will say bye bye.. PHOBIA with rich guy.
I only need love n cares, bcoz that is money can't buy. Thoughtful gift n surprise is a memory can't be erased. ALL this make a relationship stay forever. i never think this way till i found u. maybe u make me realize is important to make an efforts to make things happen. LOVE is powerful.. all i need is TLC :)

11022011

2011-02-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

Over the months i have been very paranoid, emotional, crying, no appetite, weak in everything. all this is when u are badly hurt in love. i barely share it to anyone except my girls, but i really putting a FULL STOP to all this by telling myself on this date 11022011 where me n him celebrated our early valentine at universal studio singapore. i told myself this is a new beginning for me n him on this special date.

i thought i was giving up at the beginning but i was wrong.. i never instead i shower him with more of my love that i neglected when i was busy competing my dance competition.there are people saying why will u still do all this.. * i answer bcoz i love him n i trust his love*
some will say *becky u not tired meh drive up n down sg like going kl* i will always say tired but my bf is singaporean so this is the way we love n spend time without thinking of the tiredness..
all this adventure, travelling, is already more than a year..
i see this relationship is such a miracle..

ON 11022011 is the day we celebrate early valentines at universal studio.. i was surprise that he bought me a Longchamp handbag n also handphone cover with my pic of (me n him) N (soul krazy). i never except him to buy all this bcoz i know how tight is his wallet. I'm very happy bcoz at last i have my own longchamp bag n good experience in Universal studio.. loving it so much.

i might be a bit crazy keeping all my cash just to buy him a **ipad**.. it has to be so bad that machines in Sunway out of stock i got to rush to Lot10 to buy it.. arghh make my wed a hectic day,lucky my mini myvi still working well tat day. hate the apple workers :X look down on u when u wear a shirt n baggy pants. don even wan to serve u, end up i just walk to the counter then i ask
me ;* do u have 3g n wifi ipad*
apple: yes we have 16g
me: yes 1 please
apple: open their big eyes
me: yes i please
apple: ok, total .....
me: here u go....
apple: CASH!!
me: yes, quick i'm in a rush
apple: ok thank u thank u

this is what u call money really can shut people face n mouth.. hAIZZZZ
think so many way to surprise him with ipad end up i bocor my own rahsia.. :(
my hiding skill not tat good anymore.. hahaha
at least i know he is so happy with it..
been so long i never see his happy smile face.. :)
i'm happy with his valentines gift so do him..
we both celebrated with lots of love..althought he was call up to work after tat..

everyone i'm coming back slowly the hyperactive, happy go lucky becky..just give me time..
sorry sooki i can't send u or meet u before u leave i feel so bad.. but i promise u the happy n cheerful sifu will be back when u come back.. miss ya babe

i'm back people.. hope this blog will be a happy blog soon.. :)

2011..

2011-01-13T18:43:00.003+08:00

2011.. how u celebrate your new year? i celebrate my new year performing for samsung event n @live a club.. do i enjoy it? answer is NO maybe bcoz i don have my love one with me, but lucky i have my girls von n cynthia to cheer me up a little..i remember i super hyperactive, maybe bcoz i told myself to being happy then so emotional..i drop into a emotional box for almost 2months and i still inside but to get rid of it i start to be the old rebecca lee, that go out every night, drinks with friends, krazy around, mix with all the friends that i really don keep in touch with.. WHY I DO THAT? simple bcoz i want to stop myself for being paranoid n emotional..

i really donno what i want or need in my life? i'm so lost.. feel like scream out loud HELP!! but is just not me... so i rather get myself drunk every night, go club, dance n stay hyper like crazy woman also i dowan to think all the rubbish that happen to me.. all this night life just not me, i don even feel good with it but that is the best way or only way to stop me from thinking.. Feel like give up bcoz i feel is a never ending story between both partys.. i choose to stop checking, thinking but it does show that i'm giving up slowly.. i donno know when it going to end but i might end it one day.. just to help myself althought i know it might hurt me very badly, or i will end up losing myself..

Words of truth n fact of life

** sometimes the past is something we just can't let go of.. & sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget..

***** do something u love & u will find someone who loves the same thing.
don't look for love, beg for love,or suffer for love, JUST LIVE

** is only takes one minute to break someone's heart. But it takes a lifetime to forgive that person for breaking it..

***** give your smile for everyone, but your love to someone

** falling in love means letting yourself fall even though there is a chance you might get hurt

there are more love,life quote i read bcoz all this is the one that bring me back to who i am now n i learn more from what guys, girls think with all this quote..life n love is always complicated just look at how we handle it..

Time is UP!!

2010-12-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

dear blog.. after btg final, i'm out to Singapore the next dayn start my holiday there with baby..
we went to batam on monday, n we went for para-sailing, banana boat, n jetski.. it was a wonderful holiday i ever have in this year.. not only that we went for 2hours spa..is quite expensive but worth the price bcoz is really relaxing n calm feeling inside the spa place..don feel like leaving the placce bcoz i feel so peaceful n calm.. then on wedenesday we back to SG n we went to PS cafe for x'mas dinner bcoz baby flying off to Melbourne the next day n only be back on Christmas day.. so we have early christmas dinner.. but i didn't went back KL after he left to Melbourne but i hang around at SG for 2more days. so i stay at my adek house *reela* thank you so much for taking care of me..

On 25th went to town walk around n met up with my betina Wai fong one of my kl friend for tea break.. then accompany her to Lucky Plaza n bought a archos something like ipad.. then off i go to changi airportto fetch my baby.. then we went back home n rest then out for dinner..
woooohoo we went to Newton Circus for dinner, we had crab n seafood.. after dinner, we go to rebels with all his clubbing kaki.. been so long i never club, i just can't stop dancing n drinking.. i feel like i'm back to my old days.. have so much fun n happy bcoz clubbing with my baby.. :)
then the next day i'm going back to KL bcoz he is flying to darwin.. send him off to airport n off i go back KL..

Now i'm back to kl i'm just keep myself busy with all the dance shows n classes.. but my mind is missing him so much.. can't stop thinking about him.. When all this things start i'm getting paranoid again.. for almost 2days i'm so pyscho n krazy over words.. after all this, i need to tell myself to STOP being so paranoid n pycsho, this is not Rebecca Lee.. I'm not like tat n i hate to be paranoid over stuff around.. So i told myself, i need to Stop all this rubbish thinking n back to my track..being a happy go lucky me with no stress but happy life...remember people telling me alots of stuff about life,love, career.. remember every single things ppl tell me is a advise n do help me alots.. i really wish i have someone to share my problem., but somehow is so hard to share sometimes.. i hate sharing but sometimes i love to share when it come to joys n happiness..
my feeling is just unstable.. STOP IT!!! *SLAPLet's bring back the Rebecca Lee everyone use to know.. the happy go lucky, krazy, laugh like nobody busy, always hyperactive, smile all the time, energy level always on the top.. bring it back to my soul...PRAY!!

Soul Krazy xD

2010-12-23T12:24:00.005+08:00

It has been a very hard rocky road that i fight for the past few months, it really test my patience, emotion, determination, it can be say a life VS love test..however i fight till the end.. never thought i will but i did.. unbelieveable :)

A journey with my girls Soul Krazy has alots of up n down, but we manage to go through this n we are rewarded the CHAMPION ASTRO BATTLEGROUND 2010.. the first girls group even win this competition after 3years.. we ended this year with alots of joy n smile as a group bcoz we are just 1year baby growing together as dance friends to close mate.. I really feel so sorry bcoz there so much things happen when final moment but i still stay strong just losing idea most of the time but i really appreciate n thanks all of u for being so patience n believe me as ur leader.. I really love u all bcoz u all respect me as the most old one :X n also as a leader for SK.. With all this we are together n battle up the way up to be the top.. no matter how much discrimination we get, we are still standing tall bcoz what we have is *Girls PoWer* ..
I wish a better year for SOUL KRAZY..
A year started with Showdown To Battleground.. we really prove to everyone we can n so do ourself we are strong enough to stand on our feet.. I love u girls so much..:)

bad day or good day??

2010-12-13T01:19:00.003+08:00

My saturday is so wonderful bcoz i spend the whole day with my girls at Genting.. the exciting part is we are dancing for IZ as opening act for Wondergirls Concert.. yoohoo!!we went to rehearsel at 2.45pm to arenaof star, we are there the wondergirls are having their rehearsel.. we seated at the front n watch them rehearsel but the whole session was like no camera n no video.. is like :(( haizz.. but was cool looking at them..
after they are done then our turn on stage rehearsel,check in the room, make up, dress up,dinner, gossip then ready for shown standby backstage.. we all cam-whore then talk nonsense with IZ, Hisham, SK n others..was so happening n fun :) after the perfomancewe went back to the room to change n back down to watch the concert but was a bit late we only able to see them sing NObody, Tell Me, 2 different tears.. they remix this few songs so nice.. i like fall in love to Wondergirls.. :)after the concert we were invited to their after party,then we went to chill at McD then up to Resort Cafe to party..
The after party was a bit quite bcoz everyone busy eating n talking.. the foods is goodn nice.. best part is Wondergirls was like in front of us taking their food then talk to us saying they are happy to be in malaysia..DOPE!! they are so friendly.. love them so much :) after the party we went back to the room n start our costume session for BTG.. haha was funny n tired but is fun..

Then i wake up at 8.30am in the morning (12/12/2010) pack everything then back to kl..
teach my class then back home to rest but can't rest bcoz mind is full of shitzz again.. haizzz
then later at 5.30pm went out to fetch my sister n went to Pyramid to have our dinner n shop for awhile.. but when we about to go back my car got problem the temperature shoot up n the water boil so hot.. so i stop the car at the side n open up the cover so nervous forgotten the water will splash like fountain so kena lecuh kaki..DEM!! too bad can't go back so went back to the mall n have dessert at HOneymoon til like 9.30pm.. went back to the car still the same.. so i park my car at the mall n ask my friend to fetch me back.. haizzz what a bad day???

my friend fetch me n my sister back home.. once i'm back i quickly call my baby n talk to him almost an hour.. i cry like baby again.. OH GOSH!! what is wrong with me? am i facing too much problem n stress? or just too happy that i can talk to u n cry of happiness? i'm still confused..
but was a bad day after all.. thanks for waited me to be back home safe, talk to me, advise me, listen to my problem.. it been months we never talk like tat.. just at the time i needed u, u call me so i actually shed tear at the 1st call but was too noisy u can't hear it.. but at last i still cry like baby.. haizz :'(
thank u so much baby..

2010-12-08T01:12:00.004+08:00

everything should come to an end..

from 12th november everything started with a small discovery n things become a bit cold a emotion go upside down, feelings go mix up all the time..

on 15th i decide to talk it out so i don feel uneasy n hope things come to an end...but everytime when i stand strong, there will always something hit me hard n make me fall down to the bottom again..

on the 25th i decide to talk it out again bcoz things just don settle in a way as it promise..

then another promise n trust that make me strong n tough.. but it just last me 1day n 27th another thunder strike me so hard, i fall down to the ground so badly n couldn't stand up.. i have nightmare, migraine, appetite totally gone case, feeling n emotion in a mess.. i hold this mess for few days till 2nd Dec.. i can't hold it anymore n i talk it out again.. everything seem fine n settle.. i'm cool down n steady again..

on 3rd Dec i see u n i feel so peaceful n calm.. everything seem so bright in me, i'm charge up to dance,eat n play.. but i just can't stop myself from thinking every moment we spent is not moment to me anymore.. maybe i don feel secure anymore..:(

on the 4th i blast like rain storm on the nite til 3am.. it ended with promises n secure words..

on the 5th i stand up so strong n stop thinking about it anymore.. but i discover somethings that make me blank,heartbeat stop for a minute n back to my 100% thinking again..

on my 35minutes journey n 3weeks of thinking.. i tell myself n make a very painful decision..

around 20mins before u leave, i take a deep breath n say a last goodbye with peaceful, soft voice..no high pitch,scold or emotion.. just a soft gentle bye bye..

U choose not to let go.. but i do bcoz there's something i feel in u that make me no longer important in ur life.. i struggle with myself alots after u left..i scream, i shout, i stay hyper, smile, laugh like crazy but inside my mind is u all the time..

i try to stay hard hearted but i just fail of doing it.. all the sms,ur words, ur voice, ur promises keep running around me n the moments keep come to my mind.. i ask myself am i really letting go?i just keep thinking n i decide to talk it out properly face to face..so i make my way to see u.

In the end, i just can't hold myself to be strong n let go instead i want to hold u so tight n don let u go..i hope there will be no more all this crazy moment that i never think it will happen to me..

bcoz if there is i will sure leave it with no good bye..

what i wish now is i can wash all the bad memory n put in a good n sweet memory.. bcoz everytime i walk pass somewhere, something, words spoken, moment we share, things u tell me.. my mind will run somewhere else n i will just stunt for a while.. hope i will end this year with a big smile on my face.. i dowan to have a bad crying moment or heartpain.. pls no more!!

I love u...

burst...

2010-11-27T22:41:00.004+08:00

My day is just getting so down n moody.. never know when will i be the happy crazy becky again..not putting up a fake smile, happy face, laughing even is just so fake sometimes when i think back..i stay so strong but still fall everytime i'm left alone... so needed someone to share my problems but is just seem so hard to get that someone..writing all this out just help me to release my moment of tears n sad..i feel my blog is my tearing moments... use to be my glory n happy now it turn to be so rainy, thunder blog..haizz:(

Appetite is slowly catching up but still won;t eat sometimes..today feel my heartbeat so unstable bcoz when i was resting my heart beat super fast n i was like catching up with my breathing.. why is all this happening to me?it's because of that bloody problem still stuck in my mind.. is just attack me everytime when i think about it, when i'm alone.. PLS!! help me get rid of that stupid problem.. i still lost somehow in this problem.. feeling is upside down n unstable.. u can see me day dreaming, pale face, not concentrate.. is just bcoz my mind keep flying all those words n problems..

I slap,scold, scream at myself to stop but is just keep going.. BTG is just 2week but my mind is just not stable.. i feel myself useless now in SK.. can't get things done in right time.. i hope i don dissappoint my girls.. i'm fighting hard to stay strong for Final.. is just seem super hard for me..
really need so much help n encouragement... sorry girls.. i will get back to my krazy track ASAP!

i'm like a cry baby nowadays.. cry when drive alone, cry when listen to music, when i see moments, think of words... when will my tears end??i really want to have the hardcore heart that don shed a tears.. how come i become so soft hearted n cry baby?? WHY? WHY??
i know why but i just donno how to stop all this... i can even while teaching dance class suddenly something pass through my mind n my eyes,nose all turn red but lucky i cover line good, none of my student find out.. but is getting harder everyday to control my emotion..
all i want is to gain back all the moment of trust.. if not i will try to run away from all this problem will my best runaway..

life is so complicated..

colorful or darkness

2010-11-27T11:28:00.002+08:00

I feel my surround has turn so dark.. i can't cope with it anymore, other than just stay strong go through the competition.. what i wish now is to have the energy, strength, idea to dance on my Final..why things like to happen on wrong timing? why things need to turn out to be so bad?why can't i just stand strong on my both feet n don care about it...ARGHHHH!!!!

My colorful n wonderful life has turn to colorblind, fear, phobia, physco, not confident.. i hate this feeling..i want to fight back the old me strong, confidence, happy go lucky, gila gila, sampat till the max. i have tune down so much, it's bcoz of my age or just things around me is making me stress.. i need a solution for all this if not i soon will be admitted to *CHOI** just maybe..

I have a day rest with my baby on 25th Nov 2010.. i totally take a off day n we just go shopping, watch movies, have nice lunch n dinner.. it's really been long i have a nice PAK TOH day with baby.. everything seem so sweet that i smile,laugh, n feel so peaceful.. we go to times square n shop for OBEY shirt n yes indeed we bought 3Obey shirts n saw Nigel..haha so conincident..
then we hit down to Pavilion cinema to watch Megamind n i laugh bcoz there are few part that is so funny.. then we shop around Pavilion n farenheit 88.. we when to Uniglo, baby bought me a cute jumper suit, i look like a small girl when i wear it.. hahaha can;t imagine it..then dinner at Madam Kwan's yummy yummy nasi bonjari is just so nice... after everything we go home is already 11plus.. back home we watch dance clip n Airbender but i fall asleep before the movie start bcoz i think i just feel so peace n calm when i put my head on my baby chest.. i can sleep well n no nightmare.. thanks baby for the lovely day.. I love u so much <3<3

I hope there will be no more nightmare, stress n emotion down 99%..
i feel i can't take it anymore..
wish for everything to over soon...

Can't wait for 2011..

health down 99%

2010-11-20T00:14:00.003+08:00

day by day...it has been a week, i feel so down n emotion down to 99%..eating has become so difficult to me, heartbeat abnormal, giddy, shivering n cramp..:(
everyday i control my emotion so i won't just blast it out, i just wish i can be alone all the time, but is hard bcoz i'm stuck with BTG competition.. NOW i just wish everything can be over, so i can get back to my normal track where i'm happy go lucky everyday..

Everytime when i'm with my girls, i will laugh, go krazy, so tat i won't think so much, but in the end i will still be alone n think again.. :'( looking at them i feel so peace n happy for them, bcoz they can share their problem with all the friends, write it out in FB status, or in their blog.. why can't i just be like them? i always keep all the problem inside me n settle it slowly with thinking about it, end out i'll stress out n burn out.. maybe the way i grow up is different that make me a secret keeper, everything settle sendiri..

It has been a week, i didn't eat proper food, or can say a proper meal.. but still hanging strong bcoz i tell myself not to collapsed n fall.. hope i can hang til BTG final.. i can;t believe myself can be so skinny.. losing weight like nobody business.. i dowan all this but is happening to me..
if can i want to scream out loud * Rebecca can't hold any longer n stay any stronger*I WANT TO GIVE UP!!!! but i keep holding back bcoz i believe in it...

people always say "what goes around,come around* i believe in it now, is a life karma that go in circle..

'' life ''

2010-11-16T02:44:00.004+08:00

Life is always full of sweet dreams that everyone wish like Fairy Tale.. But does this fairy tale appear in so called reality life..might happen if u are one in a million lucky girl choosen by the GOD to be in the fairy tale story..

Too bad i choose not to be the fairytale lady, bcoz i got my dream to chase..
I chase this so call dream for many years n i have make my name, fame, in this few years n i'm happy i got so many friends, fans n student who support me in so many ways..
i have aunty n uncle that sponsor me to compete in Worlds.. Student that appreciate me so much n make little present that is so memoriable.. (crying) i think i have make my life full of beautiful dreams n great success..What else do i ask for??

i think nobody know that this strong lady know as Rebecca Lee a.k.a Becky Lee.. Is such a failure in her Love Life.. I can be so cool n steady in all form but when i'm facing Love problem i can collapsed n fall just like tat.. why? can someone help me with this? i dowan to go through al this over n over again, is just so tiring.. being faithful, loyal, lovely to someone u love izzt wrong,i just don understand sometimes.. I just feel like going back to the old me (drink n club everynite), hang out with all the friends til late nite, don stay at home all the time, don care about people feeling.. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? i have turn into a good girls that stay at home watch tv, eat house food, be back home before 12am,don go club drink.. this is call LOVE POWER!!
From a girl that doesn't wear short pant out from the house, has become liking short pant, singlet, wearing contact lens, make up.. what have i turn into.. Can't believe myself..

I just wish i can hold on till BTG over..i dowan to dissapointment everyone that look up at Soul Krazy and support us so much.. but i really can't really think or work things out when i'm really emotion break down..i need help so much but i donno who can i ask for, all i can do is cry it out..
Heart pain, stress, is just crazy bombing action to me.. i think i'm going to lose weight like hell.. my face going to turn pale like paper..the crazy is i didn't eat for 2days just drink water but still can perform 3routines with Soul Krazy for my birthday party, the most crazy madness thing i ever do..after party straight drrive to Singapore to see my baby.. turn speechless with my action sometimes..

My baby bought me iphone 4 as birthday present first time ever receive such an expensive present from my love one.. been going through my birthday with no present, no celebration, no love one around with me for so many years.. should i say I"m stupid or just being dumb.. maybe is just written story life on REBECCA LEE.. this year should say the most happiest year ever..
suprise from SK, my student at Evonne Sttudio, Astro, my big birthday party at Hai Thiam Lo with Famous Crew singing me cantonese version B'day songs, Old school Brothers, students, family, aunties, uncles.. the most wanted person in my list not there (MY BABY) wanted to shed tears in the party but i manage to hold my tears n smile through the 5hours party..Party was great n amazing.. hope i can do it again..

for now..All i wish is i can think something better for BTG final then all the rubbish shit problem i'm facing..haizz.. pray for the best now..

TIRED!! EMO!! STRESS!! F**K UP**

Birthday Surprises!!

2010-11-12T01:14:00.003+08:00

November started with a big smile on my face bcoz Soul Krazy has made their way to Battleground Final 2010.. yoohooo.. but the tiring part is about to start..

On the 8th nov after the semi final round 3.. we need to go for a training with the 3judges at sri petaling is such a tiring day.. i sweat like pipe water in the class.. demmm!!! classes ended late bcoz we start late so i didn't attend Loose Joint workshop bcoz i got class at 7.30pm at Sri Damansara.. so i left at 6.15pm.. then i straight went to my class ended late bcoz was busy cleaning all the steps for my party performance.. then went home for shower..

At 10.30pm, i receive a sms from my sister asking to go out for a drink.. seem tat i have no date or anything so i went out to Oldtown at 11pm to meet her up with my mum n niece.. so we eat,talk..i was busy online seeing the time pass..
I was looking at the clock on my netbook hit 12am.. i was like is my birthday.. but is will always be the same every year.. boring, with dance classes.. sleep..without any celebration..
When i was busy replying all the wishes on Facebook, suddenly Seven,Cynthia, Yvonne Kan n Von appear in front of me singing Birthday SOng so loudly while holding a 2box of cupcakes with my name on it BECKY, the whole oldtown can hear their voice..I was like *what a surprise*i can't believe my eyes standing in front of me is my 4girls*.. In my heart i was like is this a Dream or Reality..the first cake n surprise that my dance crew ever do it for me.. I feel like crying but bcoz we always *SAMPAT* so i act very normal.. hehe
But i'm very happy n speechless.. :X then after eating the cupcakes all of us go back.. Von n Yvonne went to my house to sleep..my birthday my room is fill up with friends, loves and laughter.. :)

is 9th november my birthday,i wake up at 6am bcoz i think if we 3 wake up at the same time who can us the toilet first == .. so i wake up shower everything then von turn n last yvonne..
we left house at 7.15 n reach astro at 8am.. we makeup, hairdo, breakfast, shoot, gossip..
astro n my girls again surprise me with another BOX OF CUPCAKES.. with all the top4 singing me birthday songs.. i feel so paiseh but also KAM TONG.. in my life this is my first time going through a birthday with so many surprises.. after we finish, we left to sunway for lunch.. on my way there, my baby call me n sing me a Birthday Songs bcoz he is so far away from me n can't celebrate or be with me..i just patiently wait for him to celebrate with me when he is free..

5 of us was sitting at yu jia for lunch while discuss about BTG final.. but when we having discussion my eyes is like closing.. cannot tahan i straight tell my girls i need to go back n sleep..
so i went home n sleep for 3hours n wake up 5pm.. had my dinner at home bcoz mum cook.. after tat i drive my way to mahkota cheras for class til 9pm.. After class i go to Royal Phanthom for practice with Soul Krazy for Miss Nina show... practice ended at 11.50pm..pack everything n i go to my car n drive myself home..

In the car i see the clock hit 12am.. n i tell myself My Birthday is over.. i'm one year older...
What should i do next year? what i want to achieve? what else do i wish for?
I have a very tiring, but happy day with my girls... althought sometimes i stress like in hell bcoz of competition, n feel like scream n scold when routine cannot be done n clean...But i just can't do it bcoz i know all of us are doing our best to prove ourself..that's why the name SOul Krazy suit us so much.. haha :p

I LOVE U ALL MY GIRLS SOUL KRAZY!!!!

end of october :(

2010-10-31T12:09:00.003+08:00

30th OCT.. today i wake up at 7.30am.. then pack everything, shower n went out to class at Bukit Jalil at 9am.. lucky i reach there on time bcoz i came out from the house late.. after class i drive to hartamas for my 2nd class at 11am.. after 11am class drive back to bukit jalil for my 3rd class.. wah i feel so sleepy and tired driving up n down the same road.. tick tok!! 3pm class ended n i quickly take my stuff and go to sunway to pick up cynthia..but when i sitdown in my car my phone receive a msg (cynthia no transport to go sunway then blah blah blah) so i drove to her house but the traffic is like WTH!!! so jam everywhere.. so i make a lots of turn n shortcut end up reach her place at 3.40pm.. VROMMMM!! i drive to sg besi toll to meet yvonne..My driving skill still KENG* reach there at 4.05pm.. hahaha DOPE!!

then our journey to bahau begin.. seremban highway was jam bcoz accident but we managed to reach at 5pm as promised but the aunty late.. ADUI!!! so on n on.. then we drive to BAHAU.. is so freaking tired driving bcoz is very far we reach BAHAU HOtel at 7pm.. total 4hours in the car...

then we practice, eat,dance, cam-whore, make noise, n freeze..hahaha was a fun outing...

after show was like 10plus.. so i drive my way to Singapore..

but bahau road is freaky bcoz very dark.. then we reach to a junction yvonne take her turn back to KL i go to SG.. but i feel so scary alone in the car driving such a creepy road.. bcoz when i look at the back mirror i can;t see anything just dark not even a single car on that roaD... scared to dead for almost 1hour..after an hour i reach to the main highway so i took around 2hours drive to reach SG.. manage to reach at 1am..FUNNY thing, when i reach custom as usual they check. so the police ask me where am i going .. I say going *CLARK QUAY*..then the police ask me to stop at aside open all the door, wide down all window, open car boot, engine boot.. then they start check my car.. i feel like my car kena rogol from 6policemen..so they ask ne n i just very chill n talk to the policemen.. after few minute i'm off to go bcoz my class is full of sneakers, and my private stuff..hahaha.. off i go n check in to the hotel

i reach the hotel i feel so scary but don care just check in, n shower n off i go to Clarke Quay..then when i reacch there n i know why the police will check my car like i'm a criminal.. The people here are so daring, the way they dress themselves up is off the hook.. I drop my jaw..so i park my car at a shopping mall n walk to the bridge to Clark Quay..unbelieveable i see nurses, police,zombies, mummy, batman,superman, frankenstein and a lots of from the creep movies or funny movies.. so i walk around but i just see people in costume, drunk,lying on the floor, vomitted left over, is just like after party.. i'm bored so i drive to 7-11 to buy drinks n took a short walk.. i see the clock is already 4.30am but i still haven't receive the call so i went to orchard n walk a while just everything is close.. my first time go inside a shopping where the music is playing but nobody inside except me.. i feel myself like a small girl lost her way out.. i even play the lift going up and down at orchard central mall.. :P after tat i just drive myself back to hotel..

back to hotel i shower n still waiting for the call.. so boring i just purchase the wifi token to online.. check FB n have a bit of laugh seeing the picture of SK.. but i was too tired to continue waiting so i went to sleep around 5plus.. then wake up at 7,8,9, n 11am up i shower online n blog..
but the connection in the hotel was like arghhh.. after i write everything wanted to post it go back to browser.. i was like ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!... so i went out to orchard n shopping..

My lucky day i reach orchard n i found parking at the public parking.. then i start my shopping to atria, wisma atria, cotton on.. is my first time really shop and buy... can;t believe myself but i'm still feel empty n unhappy when i shop.. maybe bcoz i really still sad about yesterday what happen..so i forget to even eat breakfast n lunch.. then at 5pm my stomach is like calling then i realize i haven't eat the whole day.. so i go to Burger King at Orchard Central to have my meal bcoz they have wifi..yoohoo!!

today is last day of october, then it will be november.. wat i wish is november 9 doesn't appear in calender bcoz i feel so empty on that day every year.. for so many year is always the same classes, competition, n busy busy.. Family, BF, Friends is always belated celebration but still happy that u all make an effort to make tat day a special day..i just use to celebrate it with teaching classes, busy with work,like every normal day.. this year it will be the same too.. but i hope my belated party will be very successful, n everyone who came n make it a special event will be happy also..
i hope everything can go be better from any aspect, finacial, friends, relationship..
i wan to be the happy go lucky me.. i have lost the happy n funny laugh of mine..

after tomorrow, gonna fight hard for BAttleground semi final.. i believe SOUL KRAZY can.. GOGOGOGO!!!!! Becky CHIONG ARRR!!!

I need help & a day rest!!!

2010-10-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

Dear Blog.. been few days.. seem like things has already cool down in me or i just want to leave it aside so i can continue with my overloaded work.. i think i just leaving it aside n continue with my girls.. i need to concentrate in BTG.. but my mind is just too much things to handle especially my birthday party.. there are so many people coming and i need to make it a great party bcoz is my 1st time doing it..people are expecting many great shows n things going to happen.. but i'm so clueless now donno even what to do with the decoration?? arghhh!! i need help from my student.. going scream out loud to them to help me out..just hope my party will be the most memorable..

Still feeling abit lost.. maybe thinking too much for BTG storyline, concept, songs n etc make me so freaking tired everyday..everyday go to studio practice also like so restless.. i just hope SK can do the best n bring out the best as a girl group.. is so hard to be a hardcore girls group.. why??? In dance world now, guys can easily make fun of themselves and win the competition,like wear dress, makeup themselve like girls, dance a bit girl style n they will get scream from everyone ..but when come to girls what can we do to get all that?
To choreo a dance routine really needed so much of brain cell to burn just to make a great, wow routine..haizzz :(

i feel so freaking tired... I NEED A DAY BREAK!!!!! if not i will burn myself of before BTG semi final..

hate it!!!!!!!

2010-10-20T02:30:00.003+08:00

i'm so happy today bcoz i'm going for hair do and also he is going back to SG.. yeahh at last can call n talk for longer time... so morning when to salon at 11.30am.. then waited for the stylist to reach at 12.40pm, sit till my buttock pain.. then the stylish color, highlight n cut my hair.. woohoo new look!! then at 5pm drive to studio at kajang for class end it at 9pm.. then i quickly go home... can't wait to online chat with my baby..

reach home around9.40pm then clean up everything.. he call n say he is going to meet his friend for chit-chat.. so i wait for him to back home n online.. start to get bored then i mix music,watch video, online then so on... clock struck 1am.. i call himn he is still with his friend..
why is he doing all this to me???i'm feel so neglected all in sudden,.. haizzz

i want him to call, bcoz i miss him so much.. i sent him a msg saying i will sleep then end up he never call not even reply sms.. i like sad then cry till cannot breath so i wake up n online again.. suddenly he pop up from msn n call me.. i feel happy but also feel angry.. i got mix up feeling all in sudden.. talk to him but i just cannot hold my emotion then i just *blah everything out* haizz..crying in front of lappie, writing all those sentences, it's really want i want to say to him.. i also donno what am i saying...

i can't continue blogging anoymore.. i have cry till i my eyes swollen n can't see the words,,

moody monday

2010-10-19T00:29:00.003+08:00

i like monday bcoz i only got 1class to teach.. but donno why i'm not happy today.. maybe bcoz i waited for him to call me till no mood..so i when to sunway for lunch with Yvonne n Von.. bought Mcnugget set n woohoo my favourite french fries is back(spicy mcshaker) yum yum.. but i didn;t finish n pack the nugget for cynthia.. after makan, went for window shopping for a while n Von bought herself a sexy blouse ..*is sexy gila la* :P ..went to studio practice til 4pm bcoz seven got class..after that i lie down on the sofa n i fall asleep.. WTH!! happen to me, fall asleep just like tat..

ARGHH.. so i quickly take my bag n say bye bye to von n cynthia.. i walk to sunway Wong Kok cafe online and have my dinner there.. send music to samson,listen to songs, mix music, choreo,so on til 6.20pm.. so boring sitting there so i went to walk around to find costume..my phone ring, he call n say he just woke up n going out for dinner ask me take care n eat :)

hahaha guess what happen a group of college girls came to me say they are from Lim Kok Wing and they doing fashion project..*of course i'm frighten by them but still help them..

LKW Girl: excuse me, can i take a few picture of you?

me: me?? why me?

LKW Girl: bcoz the way u wear very fashion..

me: huhhh!! ok lor only picture ..

LKW Girl: thank u.. snap snap..

me: that's all.. you're welcome

so my shopping continue.. haha weird thing happen to me again.. too boring n tired walking so i walk to my car n drive to class.. adui the traffic today is so bad everywhere is jam at 7.10pm..

i fall asleep again while driving ar.. reach studio at 8pm.. then i ate tau hua bcoz sister bought for me.. then cha cha time til 9.40pm..

after class, no plan with sister so i went back home, shower everything then online.. life is so boring or i just making it look boring..yeah tomorrow i'm going to dye my hair, cut hair.. wah been so long never pamper myself.. must earn more money to make myself pretty.. stupid face is full of pimple, so oily, hair is like forest.. i must make a beauty plan for myself (massage, facial, hair do)when i can do all that?hope all the finacial problem can come to a end soon..

my baby call me later after i call him a few time.. same thing again he was sleeping when i call him..

haizz.. i think i just worry too much, and i think too much.. * slap * his stomach is playing drum again,that's why he is up n out to buy food n call me at the same time.. :( he call me again after he bought his food.. but only talk for 2mins bcoz wan to budget.. thought he online but the connection got problem, so end up i online talking to myself..is already 1week we talk less than 5mins a day..

i want to have better day.. how can i do it?? i dowan to cry everynight writing blog before sleep.. share some of my problem here.. sleep with many question...haizz :( is just hard..

i just want to get back to where everyone say i"m a happy go lucky girl... she always smile n laugh like laughing buddha..hope the day will come...

Day & Night

2010-10-18T00:47:00.003+08:00

IS SUNDAY.. nothing special also.. wake up at 9am, after cleaning up myself i on my lappie and edit music, sync songs, burn songs, watch youtube.. then at 10.20am out i go for my class at Sri Damansara til 1pm, then drive down to Taman Tun for my 2nd class til 3pm.. before 2nd class i went to Secret recipe to buy pasta for my student name Puteri as i promise if she got Champ in her line dance category, Well :) she did it and i'm proud of her.. she is so happy n keep saying "Teacher U buy me pasta, YEAH"..

Class ended at 3.10pm, because they were a bit slow learning the steps.. after tat, as usual don feel like going home early so i went down to Coffee Shop again.. online n call my baby but he didn;t answer my call.. :( waited waited still no call.. then i head back home around 4.30pm.. reach home at 5pm..then clean up n everything.. then he call saying tat he was sleeping n going to pack n fly to cairns soon.. :( after hang up, i cry again maybe bcoz is already few days we never really talk or chat in msn.. i needed him so much here i wish i can tell him what i'm facing n all my problem.. but i know is expensive to talk on the phone so i choose to keep quite n hold it till the day you are back to SG.. Maybe he just didn't know how much i miss him here.. *haizzz stop crying* SLAP*

then here i goes with my lappie, mixing music til 8pm.. then i keep want to go out from the house but was too tired to drive so i search for movie.. woohhoo i found *NIGHTMARE IN ELM STREET* syok gila.. watch till 9.30 then sis sms ask to go out for a drink.. both of us talk nonsense again til 10.30pm.. haha back home n continue watch my movie while online..

movie finish, online boring.. my brain start thinking again.. i'm going crazy if everynight i'm going to face all this.. keep scolding myself once i off the light.. once i lay down on bed my mind just full of question, answer, problem, etc.. then tears...:( just never ending problem.. haizzz

i miss him so much.. need him badly.. all i can do is just WAIT!!!....
:""(

ouch!!

2010-10-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

dear blog.. i been blogging this few days, i think i donno where to share my problem other than write it down here...today saturday 16th oct, i wake up at 9am but it was so hard to get up so i roll myself down to the floor to get myself up from the stupid bed..haha stupid back ache is killing me.. :(

i went out to class at 10.15am but my back is making me sick n tired, end up i sort of like play n dance with the kids then teaching them hop here n there.. i feel so bad to cancel a class bcoz i can;t get anyone to teach and my back is really killing me, make me so uncomfortable the whole day bcoz the studio boss handphone can't call through,message no reply, studio also no phone.. end up i stay at TTDI coffee shop and rest while having my lunch.. i lost my appetite again, sitting at the shop for almost 3hours but i just ate 2breads n a cup of hot coffee.. then at 4pm i teach class till 6pm, the class sort of like down bcoz i can;t even hype myself haizzz... class ended at 6pm then straight i go home..

today is grandpa birthday so mum cook n pray..house so much food but i only eat a small bowl of noodle and i'm dem full.. :) mum,sis went to night market, left me, niece,nephew n brother at home.. wahh my brother was preparing jazzuzi for his son for shower, when he was trying to change his mini swimming truck n discover his son sh*t.. :P so i carry his son take out the diaper than he clean his son buttock.. n i throw the diaper yuckk!! then there goes shower time but me TV time... haha

is already 8pm baby haven't call so worry, call him a few times never pick up.. so waited then he call n say just arrive narita will call me back later..tik tok 9pm sis n brother say go YUM CHA, then we whole family go out for a drink at OldTown White Coffee except dad n sis in law.. drink,talk laugh then baby fall asleep so need to go back home.. reach home at 10.30pm, wow is still early so i on my lappie n there goes mixing music again, while waiting for my baby to call..

why must i wait n stay at home?? can't i be like last time go out till late? club most of the time? go out with friends for a drink, yum cha session, gossip.. what happen to me? maybe i see too much n hear too much.. when ppl drunk they are crazy n do something out of limit n border.. i even see a guy kiss a girls that they just know bcoz they are drunk n playing kissing games.. WTH!!! GUYS!! GIRLS!! all the same... sometimes just donno to trust or not.. i see some couple are so loving but at their back there are so many *BEAUTIFUL* story.. why am i talking so much? **SLAP SLAP** stop thinking so many stupid things.. i think is bedtime..
i stop waiting for his call.. :x

is going to be a long October for me.. hope to get thru it fast...n back pain get better

Tired :X

2010-10-15T16:35:00.003+08:00

today i woke up late and late for my line dance class.. but still manage to run into the class and learn a new dance :). class finish at 12.15pm n i plan to have lunch with the aunty end up all got things to do n i am alone at the kopitiam eating my lunch( egg n bread).. so on..

at 1.15pm i left then i was late to Studio n receive msg from Mun2, but when i reach was me,her, von ..i think i usually then earliest but was late..xD practice end at 4.30pm then went for my early dinner at Kim Gary while talking to my baby on MSN..

after dinner when for window shopping with the girls and left for class at 6.30pm... this few days been falling asleep while driving quite scary, i think maybe because keep thinking of battleground music,concept,costume, my party..all this really making me tired n hardly rest..when home after tat, have dinner at home again as mum cook some dishes..

after everything as usual i online, mixing music.. but today i totally get so fed up because one of the group so coincident same song with SK so i need to find a song, rechoreo and rethink the intro..arghhh!!!!! at that moment feel like give up and walk away..

i just hope my idea won't be badly criticise by people.. u can say SK need to improve from here to here not saying we repeat steps n doing the same dem steps.. if so ask all the bboy don do 6steps when that is the basic steps..sometimes i just feel like slapping this people mouth and ask them to SHUT YOUR F**K*** MOUTH!!! i don wish for anything just hope SK will be better from time to time..

today i waited for my baby to reach darwin.. At 3am he call me n say love me n good nite..
i straight down to bed n sleep til the next morning.. is pretty a tired day but still manage to stay till so late :P but happy he call.. hope i get more of your love n care ;X..

overloaded with stress..

2010-10-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

dear blog.. i feel myself quite useless sometimes.. i keep almost all my sadness,frustration,stress and anger and don dare to show it out, the most i write it on my facebook that i cry, i'm tired, fed up, stress.. what really happen to me i don even share in my blog.. i think i should change myself to share my feeling of sad not only happiness..
i feel myself over stress recently with Battleground, my birthday party, dance classes, performance, shows n etc.. i want to ask for help but i know there is no one to help me other than myself..

lately been crying alots at nite before sleep maybe because i don get much attention from my love one n stress..i just wan to share all my problem, stress n everything but is just too expensive to talk on phone sometimes.. even in MSN u are not 100% attention on me sometimes..maybe u are busy n you don get much time to spend with your family,friends n feel left out with whatever happen time to time.. i'm too far apart from where u are so i won't complain..

haizz..i really cracking my brain every nite listening to music n finding ideas.. i just need company like talk on msn, FB just to chill me down.. but what i get is listening to music till late nite n get my neck muscle harden n pain.. arghh!!! Classes are getting more and i'm getting body ache..i need massage but where is the time for me to do so.. everyday wake up eat my breakfast, then go Studio practice, eat my lunch n dinner then go for class, back home on lappie start mixing music till late.. wish all this won't just flush down to drain.. i just wish for the best for my girls Soul Krazy to be in TOP.. i'm happy SK are growing with more girls..

what i wish now is my back,my knee can recover asap.. really need to see chiro soon, i can really feel it.. pray for the best to come..

2010-08-22T01:26:00.002+08:00

August 1..
My life is always full of adventure.. today i go to teach my class from 11.30am til 2.30pm then back home start to pack my stuff n out for dinner..after dinner i go to KLIA for my flight to UK manchester.. hmm.. this whole trip is sponsor by Bryan Ang a uncle who see i got great pontential in dancing..my flight is Etihad airline so i have a transit at Abu Dahbi 12am.. is quite a boring trip bcoz i took the flight alone.. to Abu dahbi is 6hrs 55mins.. then transit 2hrs n to Manchester 7hrs 25mins.. I just use to travel alone.. NO FEAR!!! i reach *UK* is still 1st but malaysia is already 2nd Aug.. be the 1st to reach *UK* n waited for the others to arrive bcoz all are from different flight..
All Arrive then off we go to city n our hotel to check in, by the time we reach all the shops n mall is close @@ boring.. when for dinner n back hotel :(

August 2
Morning 9am wake up.. might be the sky is bright up by 5am.. can;t really sleep well.. at 10.3oam Mike come n fetch all of us to a community center to practice our dance.. We were there practice for 3hours.. wahh!!! a bit crazy for the 1st day of practice.. after that we go for Dim Sum at Restaurant Tai Wu around 2pm.. Might be all of us too hungry we order too much bcoz i don eat pork n also seafood, :P mr.Albert n mr.bryan n ms.sherlyn need to finish it.. hahaha.. after meal we go for a walk around bcoz almost all the shop is closing..but we were still on time to drop by at Mark & Spencer n get some foods.. i get myself berry fruits, cookies, n chocolate.. :) nothing much to walk so go back hotel.. But at nite Mike come n look for us, but only me n bryan go out for a drink with him n walk around in Manchester.. snap some picture here n there.. back hotel,watch tv n sleep..

August 3
Morning wake up 6am, 7am can't remember can't really sleep there..Haizz i go shower (ARGHHH blood)pms in UK..HAIZZ!! no mood but hungry so i make a cup of milo from KL woohoo!! then eat my M&S cookies actually is like my 3days breakfast..haha no wonder i so skinny althought i holiday in UK.. then at 10.30am mike come n fetch us to CC again for practice.. then lunch again at Restaurant Tai Wu..walk around again then back hotel sleep.. BORING!!!

August 4
Same like every morning..eat my cookies then practice.. but this time we finish practice earlier n have our lunch earlier too.. woohoo!! at last i get to walk around manchester.. so i walk around n find clothes,shoes (adidas,puma,supra,nike,nike air troupe) so many shoes but some are quite expensive,some like weird looking, some are so nice but dem expensive.. so i just walk everyshop n calculate n think which to get.. after whole day of shopping i get 4sweat pants, 4leg warmers, 2blouse, n some chocolate..on our back hotel we walk quite a few different street just to see what shop around our hotel area..YEAH!! there is a dance studio name Sunshine..my itchy leg just can't stoop me from going in..XD so i ask what classes n how much then i plan to go tomorrow..bcoz today tired so i go back hotel n sleep..

August 5
As usual my morning routine, then lunch but this round much more earlier..woooo!! after lunch, i run to arndale shopping mall, walk n search for shoes but i can;t find what i want.. been looking for it since they day i arrive manchester..but i fail :(( so i decided to give up..
then i shop for what i think is worth the money.. i go Footlocker n get myself a Nike Air Jordan, n my sister a Nike High Cut Dunk.. woohhoo!! :) then walk to another shoe shop name Fit To Dance go there just to check out the dance shoes.. WAHH WAHH WAHH!! guess what i found air troupe last pair n is the yellow color air troupe that i wanted so much..what a great day!! double happiness.. after buying all the shoes i feel like carry a few KG luggage..hahahaha so go back hotel, by that time is already 5.30pm.. i pack my luggage by estimating how much can i still put it if i were to shop..ERMMM..
time hit 6.30pm i go to my class at sunshine then the 2uncle want to follow me..haha so they sit at a cornern n watch.. my class is 7pm-8.30pm..so freaking tired!!! but FUN :) this 2uncle tell me that the class ppl can't fight with my energy so i say *rebecca- famous Hyperactive n energatic ma* then mike come to studio n fetch the 3muskeeter to a line dance class where i can't remember the place.. so tired i can't even move so i sit at there for 1hour 30mins.. around 11.30pm only i'm back to hotel..SO TIRED!! i quickly go shower then pop to my bed n sleep..

August 6
Today is a different day bcoz the competition start today.. Morning we go to the event place n register n take our number.. hmm my no 292.. not bad add up all DIE!!hahahaha but for me is lucky number..i go to watch the competition by the junior bcoz mine is on saturday n sunday.. but the 2 uncle dissappear they went to Line dance workshop.. around 1,30pm we go eat lunch at Tai Wu again.. SIEN!!! after lunch i was tireed maybe PMS so i go walk around n back to hotel.. at nite we go back to Palace Hotel for party but quite boring so we go off around 10plus but everyone like hungry so we eat supper at Red Chillies Restaurant.. then as usual after foods back hotel n sleep :( bored!!

August 7
Today mike fetch us to Hotel bcoz today is me n bryan duo competition day n also choreography day.. But it started with choreography..is quite scary bcoz i need to dance alone n show my choreogarphy to the 5judges n others contenstant.. hmm but i'm happy bcoz after i dance the ppl do clap.. :) after that we go for lunch again at Tai Wu.. n back to hotel for change n back to Palace Hotel for the Duo comp.. Bryan is so nervous keep drag me to practice at the practice room till he sweat like fountain..hahahaha.. there goes the duo n done.. RELAX!! we back to hotel n rest...

August 8
Today is the day i can;t really sleep well n nervous.. i wake up late maybe bcoz my back pain.. hmm scary :X then i quickly take my shower n make up, ate 5bars of chocolate n off we go to Palace Hotel.. We manage to get quite a nice seat.. so we practice before we are call out to the floor.. the competition started at 10am n end at 5pm.. So tired!!! After we are done, we make a quite change n off we go to Tai Wu again for dinner.. Hungry man just realize i never eat lunch but only chocolate..hahahahaha then at 7pm we pay the bills n back to Palace Hotel for the awards ceremony... everyone with costume so beautiful.. the ceremony start with the young division.. so wait n wait.. *TENG TENG TENG* for the my division all the way from Malaysia *Rebecca Lee* woohoo me Champion happy :))))) .. n also the duo *Champion* ..my choreography 3rd.. really surprise me...
Go back hotel carry all the trophy I just feel HAPPY :)
mini celebration in the room, uncle bryan bring champange, me n albert out to buy chicken.. have a great makan session.. hahaha then i start packing my stuff bcoz going London the next day..;)

August 9
Morning 10am we go breakfast with Mike, he buy us breakfast so kind of him.. ;) then back to hotel n fetch us to the train station with all the over weight luggage.. hahahaha
By 1.35pm train arrive n off we go to LONDON.. is 2hrs n 3omins trip.. guess what i did.. i on my netbook n watch dance video for that 2hours.. oh gosh!! the worst thing is happening after that.. Albert book a hotel at King Cross road but the train stop at Euston Station (main station).
imagine 4 ppl (2male, 2female) drag 7luggage and walk from road to road to find the hotel.. i can feel my shoulder n hand is so pain bcoz my luggage is weight 25kg..argghhh!! n another one is small one not mine.. at last after 20mins we found it.. already hungry n tired!!
the counter also another newcomer, waited for 25mins just to check in..HUNGRY!!!
check in all wanted to rest so i need to wait,, around 6.30pm we go for dinner at Chinese restaurant (CHINATOWN) not nice n expensiive.. YUCK!! Walk around london for 2hours manage to window shopping at Lily White, then tralfagar square, picadilly, oxford circus..
after all that i'm hungry again so we have dessert..YUMYUM YUM!! at 11pm we go back hotel..bcoz worry no buses or train.. that is my last day in london..

August 10
I plan to go Camden Town at 9.30am..but the others want to follow so i think it will be a very rush trip.. but they hungry so we eat breakfast near our hotel, after breakfast only we go camden town is already 10.30am..my flight is 2.55pm..woohoo!! Crazy girl
We take train to camden town.. once we reach i say we go our own ya.. i use 20mins to walk in n see all the shoes shop in camden town just to find the shoes,but still can't find..HAIZZ give up!! so i just get my mummy the calcium pill n find them.. i'm really F1 found them in 5mins hahaha then walk with for 20mins then i get myself a speaker bag woot!! NICE n Cheap!! then off i go back hotel to take my luggage n off i go to airport.. at 11.30am i say bye bye to them..
take the train back hotel n drag the stupid luggage to train station..
While dragging the bag i was hoping i have someone beside to help me.. Why?? i always got to walk alone the hard way.. haizz carry n walk till my hand turn read n hungry.. still rush bcoz is already 12.30pm by the time i reach the station.. then i quickly carrry the luggage down to the Underground train..waited for 2min n the train come.. In the train there is no seat but lucky got a place for me to stand with my luggage for the 45mins journey to Terminal 4..Run to the counter of VAT so many ppl n is late.. so i run back up to the check in counter but lucky no one.. so i very quickly get myself check in but now i'm worry my luggage over weight.. it does 26.5kg but the counter guy is kind never charge me..my hand luggage also weight 4kg.. backpack..wah really feel like crying man..so many bag n heavy some more :( ..
then go through all the x-ray check, immigration check. I go get some chocolate for my student, granny,sister,mummy, n family from the duty free shop.. tick tick 2.10 i go in the flight bcoz i'm so tired,hungry n sleepy.. i sleep almost all the way to Abu Dahbi.. then back to KL..
reach KL on Aug 11 2pm..
receive msg from my sister saying she will be late due to public holiday.. i told her i got class at 4.30pm n i shed tear bcoz why must it happen to me after all the tiredness i go through :(.. but she still make her way to airport n fetch me, she reach at 3pm n safetly fetch me home by 3.3opm..she also F2 driver..hahaha
reach home unpack everything then pack abit for SG trip tomorrow n ate a bowl of rice..By 4pm off i go to Joyclub for class..reach at 4.30pm teach my lil matthew n claudia til 6pm..
very quickly i pack my stuff n offi go to Setapak Freedom for my new jazz class at 7pm..then run again n drive to Sri Damansara Evonne Studio for class at 8.30pm n meet up cynthia at 10.30pm til 12am.. reach home 12.30am shower, pack my stuff then online chat with my girls von n cynthia wat to bring til like 3am.. DOPE!! i really crazy :P

*i hope my life can be more different*just feel tired sometimes**

i will continue my August 12 .. bcoz is a crazy day with the girls n my trip to Singapore..XD

Short Holiday in SG

2010-07-31T00:52:00.004+08:00

Day is getting so close to my competition but my mind still planning so many thingss (baby,shoes,classes) haizz.. but today 27th july i woke up n rush to sg.wang to pick up my costume then ate my lunch alone bcoz my girls von kena buat magic show,then cynthia got problem at home,end up i ask yvonne go teman the BF.. so i went to eat MCD chicken alone..yumyum..:)

after tat still need to go sunway studio to practice with Bryan for the duo dance til 6pm.. wah so late i rush to my class at freedom end up i was 30mins earlier so i went to buy fruits n 3mini lotus bun.. after class my sister, haizz always last minute ask me to fetch her go sentral.. end up after drop her at kl sentral only i can start my journey to Singapore.. is already 9.30pm when i drop her,then i pump petrol thought of buying food but scare late, after pump petrol *piu* of i go..wah suprised i never knock off half way but hungry all the way..XD

Reach costum already 12plus.. lost my way some bcoz took the wrong turn, end up reach hotel at 1plus.. haizz scary part is park at a mall where is so creepy n scary the carpark area, n got to walk down the stair alone n see so a *bapa AYAM* eee gross...but funny looking bcoz he botak n fat.. XDXD then walk to hotel check in n **fuu** at last i'm here but when i look at the time is already 2am.. i quickly sleep so tat i can wake up..

*ALARM** ring ring at 4am, then i wake up brush my teeth, n walk to my car.. so cold in the morning bcoz it rain n i'm so so so so cold!!! drive n find my way to changi airport early in the morning was quite a funny journey..haha.. end up i reach changi at 5am.. HAHA i went to terminal 3 then park the car,walk in n see the tv or arrival n departure but no jetstar.. then go back to the car n drive to terminal 1.. BINGO i found it but is only 5.20am..
i took a walk n go around to find food, (&*%$ early morning 5.20am the kopitiam is full house.. end up i just bought a cup of soya bean n pancake..n back to arrival hall to wait for my baby..
while waiting i sit down on a chair when i back is seated 2old man.. aiyo i cannot tahan feel like putting cotton in my ears, why?? this 2old man from their mouth a full sentences of 7words sure got 5words is @#$%*.. headache ar!! so i go off n walk around.. ***TENG TENG 6am jetstar landed,. then 6.25am (where is my baby)start to scare so i made a call to my baby.. Baby have u landed with my yawning sound n sleepy voice.. :P then baby ask me (where are u) n i answer (this place called Changi Airport)..baby so surprised n walk to me n hug me..

Fetch baby back home to pack his stuff n stay with me..but hungry so went to eat breakfast then only we sleep is already 9am..@@... wake up n went to recognize to practice my dance n dinner at nite..but baby n me went to Peninsula n baby bought me a nike boots shoes..i love it so much.

on 29th July.. is our paktoh day again.. morning we went to eat breakfast at PAstaMania.. my first time there to eat pasta..it was not bad the food there as my baby one to marinara n mine too oglio..XD after that we went jalan jalan n bongok around orchard road,far east *baby phat shoes**, then off we go to VIVO City.. baby bring me to sentosa n we watch 4D movie..is a very short movie but is a very good experience n baby laugh at me bcoz i scream when i watch bcoz it feel so real.. wauahha.. after tat we went to eat subway bcoz too hot n i scare of sun til 4.30pm n then we go play LUGE..
AFter luge, we walk around but was too hot so we decided to go back vivo to watch movie.. but there is no suitable time for the movie.. so we went off to bugis street Ilumo n Bugis Junction n look for the movie but too bad they don have it..is already 7plus then we just walk to Haji Lane for steamboat buffet..but before we reach the restaurant we stop at CArbon4 n i bought baby a LA shirt..:) i'm happy bcoz baby like the shirt..makan!!!!yummy yummy i eat like a monster today bcoz baby keep singing me the song Beautiful Monster by NEYO.. hahahaha.. after dinner we went to Plaza Singapura to watch Street Dance, but bcoz the parking is like maze so i go wrong way n so emo with baby.. end up tak jadi tengok wayang..
Emotion really not good, make me throw temper n mood swing.. end up baby n me find hotel everywhere is fully booked n end up stay at geylang.. but not bad the place.. the air cond cold like freezer..but the next day baby bring me watch STREET DANCE woohooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after watch we makan MCD (spicy nugget with curry sauce, honey something french fries, n my favourite Cinnamon Meltz)...then i head back to KL for class.. another new record today i was stuck in jam at singapore costum n today friday the traffic @@.. i left costum at 6.15pm then reach cheras studio at 9.15pm.. gila record!!!!

Always feel so hard to leave the place n say BYE BYE to baby.. but we have to :( ...
can't wait to see my baby again... miss him so much!!!

July Phobia....

2010-07-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

July 2010...I really lost sometimes donno what to do... Sometimes things happen in the way i never expected n i never ever think it will happen.. But it just happen and it hurts me so much.. I can't eat nor sleep well, and keep crying bcoz it really hurt me so much..i keep putting myself to a situation that is dem busy but when i get into my car my tears will just ... I keep blaming myself, telling maybe is just my fault!! but it come to a place where i think back i do feel that sometimes..

Sometimes i ask myself why do i want to put myself to a situation i always scared, worry.. It's because the trust is already gone or i just *phobia n scared*things will happen again.. Too bad is i got good memory and i remember words in letter better than words from mouth.. i feel like give up!!!!! but think back all the good memories n sweet time it just melt my heart to say "NO"... i should stay strong and fight till the end.. but everytime when i stay strong there will always another needle poke through me and put me back to the heartpain situation...

Keeping all the problem to myself is like keep all the bomb and bullet in my body.. that will explode anytime.. WHY?? i always like to keep it??? maybe is just that i always feel my problem is Me to solve it not to say it out to all my friend and share my problem n headache..Good n Bad?
i just wish i can go through everyday with smile n less stress..
human is complicated,weird creature.. hard to understand..

i hate july.. July is a bad month for me.. i started it with tears n :(

Is July..

2010-07-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

It been so long i never update my blog... i always abandoned my blog for months then update it.. no wonder people say my blog got nothing to read n is always left aside for spider to grow...XD

let see what i did for the past few month..SHOWDOWN 2010..hmm..Never know my SOul Krazy can be in Showdown 2010 Top 12 n be the only girls group that survive till Top 7.. it was amazing that we can be till that far althought we go throught a lots of up n down in the group while practicing even all the people that watch us give us negative comment that is just hurtful n put us all to dead end...
I sometimes think does i make a wrong decision or even think did i guide SK to a wrong direction.. but none of them blame me but do support me :) i"m glad n happy to have found them..So the journey of us continue althought we didn;t made to the final of SHowdown 2010.. but receive a few job.. the most krazy was to dance an opening act for Usher Concert with IZ...**WAHHHH** screaming bcoz its was fun n krazy with SK, Khai,Bobby, Jacob n WC..althought we wack but we really enjoy ourself on stage.. :) then we perform for final showdown..

After all this i get back to the dance floor and cha cha cha again before it really become duck feet.. XD After showdown really just back to dance classes n line dance.. buti just hope that me n also SK can go improve .. not to beat anyone but to be better and don't wack in our future show or competition..

Just wishes for the best to come...

THE END Jan 2010

2010-02-02T00:10:00.006+08:00

A year started with full of fun and crazy stuff..
I form up a group name SOUL KRAZY that is 5girls member that dance like mad girls haha.. This is us at studio practice with the cam whoring session hehe.. why we at studio bcoz We join a competition that organise by 8TV name Showdown 2010 is on Jan 30th the audition n 31st is battle round..

On 30th is a public holiday for Selangor bcoz is Thaipusam, every where is jam n full of cars but i still got dance class to teach.. end up i rush to the class n back to Showdown N rush to class again.. it was a hot sunny sat n we burn our skin under the sun a perform our routine TIK TOK by kesha.. wah hot cool purple as we wearing purple on that day..we made it to the next round (that is the battle round).

once we finish i drive off to dance class again n finish at 6pm..POOOOWW i hop to my car n drive like mad driver to KLCCT to fetch my baby.. after pick my baby i drive to Sunway for practice battle round..wahh such a crazy day i have n tiring day..woolalala is over back home n rest..

TICK TOCK... SUN morning, i wake up n have a nice breakfast with my mummy n my baby.. after that i drive to damansara for class finish at 2.30pm,. once i'm done with class..pooo!! I AT 1u for SHOWDOWN battle...is such a tiring wait bcoz from 3pm we waited til 6pm only the battle start..it was a crazy battle for each group..for us SOUL KRAZY it was a wack performance n battle..might be the first time we together doing all this but we tell ourself that is a good experience n we must learn from that...loving the girls so much!!

WE TELL OURSELF THE NEXT ROUND WE WILL DO BETTER!!!!!

The most heartaching n bothering me is my baby got to wait n accompany me from 12pm til 10pm bcoz of my class n the showdown competition..Poor Thing bcoz he came on sat n sun back to Singapore n i have all this things happening..no time to accompany him also.. feeling so sorry but he didn't angry nor unhappy..that;s why i'm so glad n happy to be with him for understanding my dance life n his sacrifices for me doing all this..Thank YOu baby n I love you so much!!

CHEER!! LOVE !! HUGSS

Shopping :( ... T-Bowl :)

2010-01-19T00:07:00.009+08:00

Celebrating new year is fun but day by day, week by week passed so fast is already 2weeks of January gone..and is only few more weeks to go before Chinese New Year..
SO is time for CNY shopping.. it was a Wednesday i went to Sungei wang shopping with my sister..Wahh after month of month of dancing n busying preparing dance routine..i loost my fashion clue..few hours of walking at Sungei wang shop going round n round in the end of the day i just spend Rm50.....haha what a shopping day i have..

But what is interesting is me n my sister when to have lunch at this Restaurant T-Bowl..

The place concept is Toilet Bowl haha... a loots of choices n the food taste nice also but we got to sit on toilet bowl n eat with all the toilet bowl shape plate, cup..haha cool stuff ..check out the place if u go to Sungei wang.. my sister with my bowl of tom yam seafood ramen..Good taste yummy..

my Ice Cream Dessert..serve with Sh*t shape..haha taste nice too..

If you were to go there,, just enjoy ur seat n the food.. Have a great makan day..

3,2,1 Happy New YeaR 2010

2010-01-15T01:48:00.005+08:00

HMmm.. let me finish my year of 2009.. after christmas is a few more days to a Brand New Year

When i'm back to KL after christmas i just BUSY,Busy, busy.. dancing, choreographing, music-ing, n dancing...haha bcoz on the 30th is Joyclub Dance Studio party. I was in-charge to teach a kids dance n line dance workshop.. it was my 1st time doing all this..Haizz so tired bcoz the party start at noon and i teach the kids dance then line dance workshop n after all i rush to Setapak KL for class n back to the party..(it was so tiring till my legs is shivering n cramp).. after all this i only remember i haven't eat anything yet so i went to Mcd with cynthia n bF til late..haha after feeling full i just got to drive home..

Back home..(shuummm shower then pack my bag bcoz the next day got to wake up at 6.30 n leave the hse by 7am to take my bus to Singapore)..

Bus leave at 8am..n i start to feel excited to see my baby.. clock hit 9am they serve Subway Sandwich wow such a nice bus trip i have...woohoooo but a bit slow bcoz i reach Singapore at 1.45pm.. then i see my baby waiting me at Vivo City mall..

he pick me up then send me to check in my hotel..He off to Marina Bay bcoz he n his crew SFB is performing for Celebrate 2010..i went to Bugis Junction, Ilumo, Raffles City, Suntec, then marine Square..i shop n shop but only spent SG50 haha.. can say i stingy or just dowan to spend hehe..while i was shopping n walking around my phone will never stop ringing from time to time..my baby just worry that i will lost my way or bored alone..in the end he came out from his rehearsel place n look for me to eat dinner..

After all he went back in n i stick with the other SFB GFriends (amelia and nidya).. they get me a very nice spot to sit n watch the show..i enjoy the show n the fireworks in Singapore is so beautiful..no regret to go there on New Year...but too bad my baby not beside me to watch the firework bcoz he got to be on stage..haizz but still i'm happy..:p

After all this,,the crazy moment arrive..after all the fireworks n after party.. he bring me to meet up his frens at Bridge Clarke Quay..woohooo all are drinking n drinking in the end i also drink n drunk..haizz shynesss till the max...***

Then 1st Jan 2010..i wake up n vommit n dizzy til the max...but with my baby take care of me i'm consider fine by noon haha.. then we went out for lunch at Toa Payoh fork n spoon hehe.. After lunch we head to Vivo city n walk around before i head back to KL..So happen Bakerzin is at Vivo we went to have dessert again..woohooo but after all i still need to go back KL..SADNESSS!!!

tick tock tick tock 6pm he send me to my bus..we just can't let each other go by hugging so tight..haizz TONG!!! time's up i go to my bus then hand up wave n BYE BYE baby..hope to see u soon..

that's how i spend my new year n countdown to new year..

but 2010 is here..there will be more n more to do..i will be back soon..

DECEMBER 09.....

2010-01-07T00:26:00.006+08:00

DEC.. it started with tears n heart ache.. i quit Street WreckerZ n decided to Line Dance..
On the 1st week, my baby came to KL for DCOH final comp at Genting.. i was so excited to see him after so long.. but it was a bit tired bcoz i was rushing up to genting on fri to see him then back to KL for class on sat morning n went to Genting again on the evening to watch the comp..but all this is worth it.. Bcoz his crew SFB was crowd Champion for 2009 DCOH comp..i shed a tears n felt happy for him.. Then on the next day he follow me to KL n sad to say i met an accident when i on my way to class with him in the car..but everything was OK bcoz with him around just make me cool down..then we spend 1day together before he go back on the next day
The 3rd week.. he plan for a short holiday at KL.. he came on wed, i bring him to MOS for dancer nite, but it the plan wack bcoz there was a event running till late night .. end up we went Asia Cafe for supper..the next day he follow me to class n after all my class,we went to Cineleisure n walk at The Street n snap snap pic.. i took him to Desa Parkcity for steamboat n walk around at the park..althought was a bit wet bcoz rain.. then after dinner we went to Dessert Bar at hartamas..i was so happy baby enjoy the dessert so much n we order 4desserts...wuahaha

The last day we went shopping around at times square,1 utama n head back to Klang for dinner with my family..Sadness.. The road was wet bcoz of rain and we was late to airport that make him miss the flight.... He got to stay another day n go back with bus on the next day.. (long story no pic..Haiz can check it out on my Facebook)..problem..SORRY

CHRISTMAS WEEK...I have a special Christmas celebration in Singapore with my baby, I drive to SG n we have our lunch at Wisma Atria.. then at evening, he bring me out to walk around at orchard road n snap pic n as usual i went to see Shoess!!! but i didn;t buy..

.....TICK TOCK clock hit 7pm..we head to Heaven Loft Restaurant.. we have a very nice dinner n sweet time eating n chatting..After dinner , he bring me to Sky Garden it's so beautiful n high up ,funny is we got to snap our photo using timer..hehe...After meal..we walk to Cineleisure SG for a movie.. guess what it was so many ppl end up we just randomly bought a movie ticket name OLD DOG.. i was laughing like a mad lady inside the cinema...we actually count down our christmas in the cinema.. that's the best part..haha

After movie we went back n guess what he decorated the room with christmas tree with my present around.. i was so happy n speechless bcoz he give me not 1 not 2 but 3 christmas gift..***fainted**** i just want to say I LOVE KHAI...on the last day before i go back to KL.. we went to Bakerzin at Paragon.. we have the best dessert that is so sweet n nice (worth the money)yum yum.. LOVING IT.. i wan to tell everyone i have the most happy n joyful christmas with my baby..

PS***my gift = 1st- SK Jewellery Necklace

2nd-Adidas trefoil shoe (blue)

3rd- Adidas Bag

From Months to Months of 2009...

2010-01-05T01:45:00.008+08:00

I'm back blogging n I will start from SEPT ..i start to have feeling of love,n i found someone in my life.. a special person that i love n care so much name Khai.. the hardest n difficult part in this relationship is we are 300++km away from each other.. It is hard bcoz the missing of each others really killing..

OCT he came down to KL dance comp at genting.. i meet him up n supported him..we have so little time together bcoz i got to work..but was cool bcoz at middle of the month i went to SG for Impak Maksima Musical.. i was there for 1 week woohoooo..Syokness bcoz i spend almost everynight going out with my baby.. We went to eat at Spice, then walk for 1hour 30mins from river valley back to Grand Park City Hall Hotel , then see him practice at CBD, eat steamboat middle of the nite.. but 1Week just pass so fast..
i'm going back to KL.:"(

NOV a month start with stress bcoz is Astro Battleground semi final rounds.. my crew struggle n pass round 1, 2 the last round was one day after my B'day, but still work hard B'day put aside n dance til nite.. but too bad competiter was too strong..we OUT.. but life goes on so do my dance careerback to classes n i miss him so much,, i plan a surprise trip n drive to Singapore on thurs.. was a bit lost when i reach when to a wrong road but i still manage to find my way to hotel.. guess what no room in this hotel that hotel..ARGHHH but lucky found a hotel 1 room left.. POOM pay n check in.. SAFE

Next, walk out to bus stop but no bus bcoz was too late,, hand up n wave haha..TAXI vroommmmmm reach n i call...dooooo,dooo he answer then i say how is practice?talk n talk suddenly.. i ask him to turn back aiyah he turn wrong side.. then i say look some where n someone with red blouse.. He was shock bcoz he actually plan the same things to surprise me.. lucky his plan was cancel if not imagine that he at KL i at SG..haha

The next day, i fetch him back to his house...WOW he got a cat name BUBU,, n then KRONG rain heavily.. hmm we are hungry but we don care,, with umbrella we walk n cross a few road n block .. "KA-Ching we reach Bukit Batok food stall..yum yum MAKAN TIME..BREAK

Cont... after tat we went to town n as usual i go far east n look at SHOESSS!!!

we walk n walk..DOOM we saw a couple Blazer Nike Shoe..

we just can say NO... we bought it..hehe..

The nite is here... he told me his fren GF birthday so we need to buy the cake to surprise the fren.. so we walk to bread talk shop n get a chocolate cake..Then we head to Youth Park bcoz he got practice with his crew.. so i sit n watch them n suddenly i can;t find him.. he went missing..

1 step, 2 step.. he hold the birthday cake with candles n walk out from some where i saw his frens is here so i also follow n sing birthday songs..In the end the cake was heading to me n the song was singing to me.. i was so touch n nearly cry but i hold my tears..

It was the best celebration althought it just simple is all the thought that count..

My Baby n Me.. With my Birthday cake

after that i drive home n reach at 5am..tiring but sweet n dead bcoz class was at 11am the next day..u don''t want to know how i teach the class....haha.. TO BE CONT for DEC..more pic on next post bcoz my pic in Lappie is missing..:((

never give up!!

2009-07-25T00:27:00.003+08:00

Here i come for the fighting month with my body,mind n soul..I got myself show,drama acting n competition in the same week..at that time i really feel so stressssss n want to give up everything bcoz i just feel that time is not enough for me to finish my stuff that i must get it done before time..i sleep like few hours a day n dance the whole day..but people around ask me to stay strong n fight till the end telling me i can make it..i even think about not showing myself for practice n competition day but i told myself i'm not that kind will give up so i fight till the end....

VICTORY i finish my show,acting is fine n most of all my competition i got CHAMPION in my category n line dance team..My hip hop team also get 2nd

My Family Street Wreckerz

we got 2nd althought is just a 10mins practice for the routine..hehe

Our Shalion routine that entertain everyone most of the time...(hahaha)

CHAMPION in Allstar Line Dance Category

My baby SO WHAT?? (is the group name don mistaken i scold u ar)hehe...cool name Champion in Team Line Dance Open

WOOOHOOOO...in the end of the day everyone tell me i did a GREAT job for the nite..i'm so happy that i didn't give up n fight it..stress is over nowwww..yahoooo

My dance CREW..STREET WRECKREZ

2009-05-06T21:17:00.007+08:00

Year 2009 is the year i wan to involve myself to a brand new dance name HIP HOP..wah like everyone think i'm one of it but actually i'm not really into it just line dancing i'm good..so i make a wish that i really wish it can come true this year with all my hard work. My Dreams is to make up a new crew n join a lots of dance competition,,GUess what i manage to get a few frens n make a group name Street Wreckerz on 31 Jan 09 n join a dance competition on Feb 28..I'm so happy that this people really work together as a team with me n we make to the final round..Surprise me is we make it for a placing of 4th..in unbelieveable..i love my crew..muah muah

The first competition at Genting HIghland...4th Placing..yipee:))

Then I decide to join another comp that is organise by Trens n China press..It's started the first audition round on March 22,semi final on 12 apriln final on 3 May..i was praying hard that my crew can make it to the final..GUESS what another surprise n impressive member i have that work hard on the dance routine for 1 week bcoz most of them have exam in college except the 2older one..haha Results''' is crazy we are the CHAMPION for the comp..yahooooo"ketuk ceiling"aiyoh

After Audition at Summit Auditorium..we cam whore till the whole auditorium is empty..:P

Crazy moment on 12 Apr 09..where we go for 2round of competition..still look pretty cool

The Final call..Champion for 2009 Dreamz dance comp..Street Wreckerz..yahooooo

Let me introduce u my crew (from left with black cap ALIE, CYNthia, CHristle,Shake, Tee Hong,Roger, At last me BECKY)

The Craziest moment was on the 12 apr where we have our semi final of Dreamz comp is also The Mines dance competition audition round but with my 'gila' driving skill we when for the comp on time n also get ourself to the final round but this comp is really tough bcoz most of the crew is pioneer then us bcoz most of us just involve to the REAL hip hop community less then a year..i hope we can make it n prove it..HIP HOP peace everyone..

TO BE CONTINUE....

NO REWIND

2009-03-28T22:35:00.005+08:00

i know i been missing action again..just busy with dance competition at

USA for World Line Dancce since last Dec but no time to post up..let me say that been crazy over dancing and exploring with HIP HOP this year 2009 but before i get myself about 2009 let's rewind back..

me doing international showcase with Guyton Mundy n Rob Glover

me on the dance floor competing with other competitor

Been such a tiring trip to Disneyland ORLANDO such a long flight to get there on plane n waiting for transit for 36hours OMG really killing me softly..haha

SAD story to say i was alone there and unfortune stuff happen to me when i was competing there..In my dance competition i need to dance 6songs but i miss out 1song because they can't get me (when i was at the changing room)haizzz..so i was disqualify for placing in ADVANCE Category but lucky i enter 2 category another is SHOWCASE n guess what i got 3rd in World Line Dance Showcase..yahooo

That's how i celebrate my NEW YEAR n end of 2008 too bad all this photo is taken by Kim a friend of my from US (every photo is in action)SORRY..

Last Day in Korea.. : )

2008-12-11T11:10:00.006+08:00

I'm back to malaysia but is time for me to upload my 3rd day n 4th journey..haha

My 3rd is shoppingggg...:0) but at 4pm when for dance clas til 7.30pm Korea Dancer after DAnce Class

then have chinese dinner, the crazy time was after dinner we when for wholesale market at KOrea..cool man so many cheap stuff but too bad is Winter season so all is winter clothing:(((..
My last day was just have a heavy breakfast n we were fetch to the airport by the driver ..RELAX then we end up shopping at Korea Airport.. After breakfAST about to leave..at the lady house

By the time we reach Singapore Airport is 10.30pm check out baggage was like 11pm..then was stuck with AUTOPASS bcoz no money need to reload end up i drive like crazy to search for 7-11..found it around 11.50pm haiz then pass all the custom also 12.30am..wowww crazy late i drive n speed all the way thanks my lovely car i reach PJ my teacher house by 2.30am..HAHA Pecah my record yeahhh..:P i'm back now..Happinessssss

Able to snap a picture before i left..wuahaha

Dance,Eat n Sleep..AIYAH

2008-12-07T23:50:00.010+08:00

Today is my 2nd day at Korea, same things as usual wake up at 6.50am n when for breakfast.And guess what when we on the way to hall is was snowing we just can't stop screaming n jumping around n snap pic..After that when for workshop til 1.30pm we were fetch out for lunch at a place name Benning's serve western foood...yummy n delicious

Shrimp n Pork Ribs..was nice but i still love 1u Dave Ribs..
this is tomato rice with cheese..yummy

normal Grilled Chicken Salad...

After lunch we go to a shop process Ginseng cool stuff to make ppl healthy but eXpenSive man..few hundred dollar$$$..end up i just bought Ginseng sweet..hehe..By 5pm we were fetch to mall for shopping n then have dinner at China Factory 6pm serving chinese food..is crazy man each person must order 3dishes end up the tables is 33plaates of food till i can't even grab a picture bcoz must eat fast for them to clear before they serve again..the only food i manage to snap is dessert HAHA.. ICE CREAM

All the food,dance class n driving around we are back to home(fren house)..where located at a building Level 55 i manage to get a view of Korea demmm NICEEEEEE...and dessert or u call it chilling time with wine,champange..taste like HEAVEN(fat 1 i mean)
Korea Nite View
6BOttles of wine mix champnage...Cake,Fruits,Seaweed,Cheese,Wine,It was serve after dinner crazy eating here at KOREA.

This is the end of my 2nd day..remember to check it out for my 3rd day..PEACE OUT:P

Journey to Korea... :X

2008-12-06T19:42:00.005+08:00

Is a very exciting journey start on Thurs noon, bcoz at noon travel agent call n say the ticket was cancel n we can't fly to Korea we start feel panic til last minute we didn't fly.

I was so strees,plus no mood:( n also Sooki was at my place waiting to fetch me to airport end up we go mamak for a drink wit cynthia til 11.45pm.

After drop THIA back home i so strees i go Sunway for a drink with sooki,jessie,pik yen, poh,charlson,wpm all was surprise to see me n ask me what happen HAIZ.. Chilling with Sooki n Jessie..

The next day friday,my boss manage to get us ticket but must go SINGAPORE to take the flight OMG..i drove there n we took our flight from Changi Airport Singapore to Korea..

Me at Changi Airport With Mickey

Once we reach Korea we straight head to Competition area n judge oh gosh half awake judging haha..N weather here is crazy( -11'celcius ) event end at 5.30pm..HAPPINESS
Then we was fetch out for BBQ dinner yummy delicious..til 8pm we are sent back to hotel n rest, while updating my blog..haha

nice vegetable mix that M'sia don have..yummy n i ate 4plate of this..FATTTTT

BBQ pork is so yummy we just can't stop eating it..

Check out our Cheek is pinky in colour GUESS what we drink..Soju

To Be Continue...will be rite back :p

my BIRTHDAY..:P

2008-11-23T22:28:00.003+08:00

OMG..another year is gone and my age number just going up up and away..
This year is so tiring bcoz was busy with dance stuff .. but i was pop with surprise on the eve when i go to HEAVEN cafe to meet up my close frens end up they ask the band to sing me a birthday song.
Then the next day when i go teach my class on my birthday..my student came out with birthday cake n sing birthday song i was so tired but in my heart i was touch till donno wat to say n even feel like crying but must TAHAN can't cry must act cool haha(worst is 2cakes bcoz 2classes) Later at noon i need to go BU3 for carnival another surprise from the DJ greet me birthday wish by my BU4 Girls another surprise ..haha

MY Sri Damansara Student (Evonne Dance Studio) cam-whoring

me with my BIRTHDAY CAKE...Yummy YUmmy

later at nite before my day end my closer frens(student) go out dinner with me to a KOREAN restaurant at Kota Damansara n have dinner after that we go DESA PARK CITY for playground fun...all of us start to have crazy fun til late..this is how my birthday for year 2008..sorry no pic when have fun but can see some off it from FACEBOOK..check me out with heel climbing the playground..HAHA

ME N WPM

ME n MY Darling CYNTHIA

Me N My Baby Sook Huey

Me N Dear Jessie

Me n My SIS (u will understand when see the real person) Sue Ying

Me n Paul(racer)

Me n CHar Siew opppss(Charlson)

I'm the Champion....

2008-10-09T11:59:00.006+08:00

i'm back from JAPAN ..why i'm there rite?? for line dance competition ..is a good experience and no regret to go there n guess what i come back with a medal..GOLD MEDAL (CHAMPION) hooray ..check it out check it out..

*Me with my costume *

McD McD...yummy yummy this is my lunch McRIB...

Me n my Teacher Joanne :P

From left to right

( 5th Rika, 4th Mio, 3rd Tomoko, 2nd Yukiko, 1st Me(Rebecca)

Hong Kong Disneyland...:P

2008-09-12T10:59:00.008+08:00

I'm back from Hong Kong is so tired but fun..disneyland is so beautiful n cute bcoz everywhere u go there is MICKEY facesss....as i always say picture speaks louder then words haha..check it out

Here goes the champion for My School Rocks (Philipines)

me me me with the Trophy n the 4girls.. ooppss sorry wrong is mickey,minnie,chip n dale..

Welcome to Disneyland Hong Kong

See seee..mickey pizza..yummy yum yum

my daily breakfast meal..mickey mouse pancakes n waffles with syrup n cinnamon sugar..

pooh pooh bear is here...hug u tight tight..

me with chip n dalethank you for visiting my blog.. there is more coming up...see ya:P

Last Day At The World Championship

2008-08-10T23:14:00.006+08:00

Here goes my last day at The Hip Hop Championship n Workshop at Vegas..Cool n fun bcoz i just can wait for the world hip hop Final is tonight and workshop is morning with the top choreographer guess who check it out slowly here..

Ladies n Gentlemen this is my Room at Vegas that cos me a BOMBB***
with 32'inch Tv,bathtub, like a high class condo wowowow

Banner on the way from USA....cool group of Eclectik the defending champion of 2007

This is the awards for the World Hip Hop Championship and guess what
Philipine All Stars is the Champion for 2008 n Eclectik is 2nd for Kaba Modern is 3rd ..
Check out the flag bcoz my pic a bit small hard to see..SORRY

Guess whoooo....Is Shane Sparks...

To Be continue of my journey after the Championship at LAS VEGAS.......:P

Hip Hop International 2008

2008-07-31T07:05:00.006+08:00

I'm here at the Hip Hop International presenting The World and USA Hip Hop Dance Championship.It was a great experience here with all the dancer around the world..I attended the workshop teaches by Chuck,Geo N Mike..i think picture tell everything that's why in post more picture then words..Here it goes>>>>>

Hip Hop International Stage 2008

Me with Mike(Kaba Modern)

his move is fast n control cool as he is..n he like to make fun in classMe n Geo from Iconic..
his move is more to mixture of everything(pop n new school).i like it

Me n Chuck Maldonado..

his move for workshop is more to Michael Jackson..coollllll!!!!!

Las Vegassss.......

2008-07-30T12:58:00.007+08:00

Here i'm at Vegas before the competition start..i went around to Las Vegas Strip where all the Hotel n Casino located,is crazy here bcoz in each hotel there will be a casino n amusement park in the hotel..the one i stay is with Nascar Cafe n Roller Coaster..coolllll...

this is one of the Hotel New York New York..with the Liberty statue...
Guess what the BIGgest PSP hang up on a Hotel Wall....

sexy sexy sexy..
This is another hotel with a big Signboard with sexy lady....wuweeeee

This hotel more cool with the BIG Coke Bottle...
is not just a bottle is a lift bottle...

This is Hotel Planet Hollywood where the
World Hip Hop Champioship Final going to be held...

1st Annivesary Racken Force

2008-07-29T13:16:00.003+08:00

wow wow wow..is has been 1year Racken Force form..It was form bcoz of Watson Competition then we stay on for the next challenge Astro Battleground..Since then , we stay on for show and no competition at the moment except own job,or solo comp..but i wish that we will keep on our team work n go for more competition...hehe

this is us with our annivesary cake,can't wait to eat it..

5,6,7,8 here come my 2-0-0-8..

2008-06-25T01:18:00.016+08:00

Let's talk about this year 2008, New Year when for fireworks at THE CURVE, Chinese New Year show wit astro n gambling as usual n don forget food(yee sang,biscuit,n ANG POW)..
Then march SYTYCD not me bcoz i'm season 1..cool ..April great month bcoz me n dennis was choosen by SONY as the MP3 icon check us out at SONY shop,banner n website..
May busy busy when to shanghai for dance workshop but shops a lot for dance shoes so that i can dance till i drop...wuahaha(sorry no picture bcoz not nice:(((
Here come JUNE scary month bcoz a lots of birthday n celcbration n tons of workssssss......:'(

SYTYCD is back with season 2 but this is us with Pat Ibrahim at Panggung Bandaraya on the day the TOP 20 is announced..all of us was there till 5am just to welcome the season 2...

IS JUNE arrrrrrrrrrr...my sister come first then i buy her Nike Stuff,,next she buy herself a ice cream cake haha...poor things

Here come another B'day Boy my ex-dance student that can dance quiet well but shy to do shake or bodyroll haha..now big boy already got girl girl somemore...shame shame arrr
waahhhhhh...crazy then come FATHER's Day here goes..bring my dad n family to 1U dave for dinner cost me,sis,n bro a bomb...but lucky my dad have a great meal n also cake...

That's All for this half year....to be continue....catch up the next season...hehe WILL BE BACK

RACKENIZE.....the force

2008-06-19T11:43:00.006+08:00

The journey continue after ASTRO BATTLEGROUND and our relationship is more close n we have fun all the time when together...is getting to our 1st anniversary as Dance Crew..wow time flyssssss.....but still RACKONNNN!!!! non stop...

Crazy force bcoz we were ask by ECHOPARK to take picture for their clothing...u can check us out on UTOPIA magazine or ultimate skateboarding..but we look fierce on the magazine pic..:P
Watson familiar to u..YEAH..is the anniversary celebration we were they special artist performance...this is us at Sungei Wang at 9am for rehearsel...gila so early..Astro Awards wahhh this is more chilling men bcoz we need to walk on RED CARPET that is MELEDOP....Kababoom and sitting behind the HONG KONG artis...wuhooooo!!!!!
They Are MY FM Dj we were with them on Chinese New Year Eve for celebration performance..is so cool we gals battle with the boys is so funny bcoz all are trying to do break dance moves.. but we have a good time together...meledop..!!!

TranFORM.....

2008-06-19T11:21:00.008+08:00

i'm back..from SYTYCD to Asto BAttleground is a fun n cool journey for me...and i got myself a hip hop crew wow...let's see..

We Are The CHAMPION............:)))))

worry about how we do with the RADIO.....the judge say is incredible n entertaining....yohoooooooo...that's sp cooollll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TOP 4..... but Where Is TWISTER ET???

Gold Digger(money money:)

Racken Force............RACKENIZE....
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WOW :D

2008-05-29T15:55:00.003+08:00

Love my new picture?

EL OH VEE EE!

back to blogging again.

2008-05-29T15:38:00.000+08:00

IM BACK :D

Asia Pacific Masters Dance Championship 2007

2007-07-17T23:08:00.001+08:00

Sorry guys, it's been a long time since i've updated my blog........ But here I am, posting about Asia Pasific Masters Dance Championship :D

Finally, it was APMDC...the day when i was really excited after SYTYCD ended. I woke up early in the morning on sunday in Shangri-la hotel. I was really anxious when i was putting my make up on because i couldn't wait till i get on the dance floor again. But this time, i'm back doing line dance :]

I took part in line dance individual Intermediate as well as Advance and also line dance Dual with my partner, Tanya Teng. The event started at 10am n my heart was pounding as time goes by, waiting for my category. At last, I did my thing n gave all out in the Heats n thank God, i got into semi-finals.......................................then I waited for the results.................. This yr, the competition was really tough n i have to admit I was shocked when the results came out!!! I got into the finals!!!!! Again, i was really excited n nervous about the competition at night.

rebecca lee & tanya teng

line dancers :]

Fortunately, I've won :] I'm really grateful n thankful. Again, i will not stop dancing n will do my best while enjoying every competition. Thanks to my family and friends.

Lots of love,

Becky

grand finale...

2007-07-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

At last, the grand finale was last friday n So You Think You Can Dance come to an end. It was a total blast!!! It has been 3 months full of memories n fun :D Finally, ALAM won n we are all so pround n happy of him. In fact, i want to congratulate every single contestant or i should say friend in this show because all of them did a great job. I enjoyed performing on the grand finale n the fans were all full of energy, it was HOOTTTT in ruums.

It's back to normal life routine now but wait guys!!! there are more shows n performance coming xD keep on supporting us coz we will never stop dancing....................

those were the days..

2007-06-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

just a short update.

that was when we did our silat dance. :)

dancehall with jimmy

firul and i

showing up at ruums last week

to those who wonder how am i doing, i'm fine. thanks for the concern. :)

more pictures coming up soon. so remember to visit my blog when u have the time !

don't miss the finals ! it's next friday 8.30pm at Ruums KL ! note that it's FRIDAY. the top 20 will be back and stomp on the dance floor again ! see u there ! ;)

Thank You

2007-06-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

Finally, my journey in SYTYCD came to an end last week. I was rather upset that i had to leave this competition but on the other hand, thankful because i realise that a lot of ppl voted n supported me. No matter what, i just wanna take this opportunity to shout out to every single lovely ppl who supported me all these while... THANK YOU!!! Also, it has been a great experience n i wanna thank all the crew, judges n dancers for everything. Though, i will keep on dancing n only have hopes to improve. My passion for dancing will NEVER vanish.

I also went to the recent roadshow in Gurney Drive Plaza, Penang. I really enjoyed being there. thanks again to everyone who showed up :) Keep on supporting the top 8 because they're working very hard in this competition.

cheers <3

More Pics

2007-06-06T05:30:00.000+08:00

Here are more pics for the previuos show... the competition is getting stronger n here are my friends that i'll miss...

Jo n I

Izaac n I

Yannus n I

Again, it's top 10 now...pls support all of us n thanks to all my family, friends n fans again... stay tunned to 8tv every thurs 930pm :D

love,
Rebecca

MALAYSIA TOP 10 !

2007-06-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU !! LOVE ALL OF YOU !!!!

yes ! i've made it into the top 10 of Malaysia So You Think You Can Dance ! :D

million thanks to all of you that supported me all the time, it means a lot to me and i really do appreciate it.

this time, all of us have to do all kinds of modern contemporary. dennis and i did malay contemporary silat.

i feel very fun doing this dance because it's my first time doing it ! it's really an interesting dance with great choreography.

i can't believe i was chosed to be in the bottom 6 last night. i injured my leg and i couldn't really do my solo dance. but i still tried my best to dance for that 30seconds.

i'm glad that i'm safe, and i'm now a part of top 10 dancers in Malaysia ! thanks to all of you who voted ! i'm very grateful to be chosen to stay with this competition ! and it's all because of you !

THANK YOU !!!

I MISS ALL OF YOU !!

stay tuned ! u wouldn't wanna miss next week's episode ! ;)

EVERY THURSDAY 9.30PM 8TV (LIVE from RUUMS !)

sexy top 12 week

2007-05-28T11:50:00.001+08:00

hi i'm back !

before i post about last week's SYTCD show, here are some clearer pictures of our time square's roadshow. :)

dennis & i being interviewed.

top 14

dennis & i appeared on metro newspaper. :)

last week, dennis & i had to do Argentine Tango. where i have to be really sexy, to seduce dennis, so that he will bring me home. this is the time where i have to be really feminine, suave and sultry.

this week, ruums seems to be jammed packed with a lot of audience. i was glad that my family, friends and fans all turned up to support me. there were big banners, playcards, poms poms, ribbons and of course their powerful screamings and cheering that made me feel much more stronger on stage.

after we did our dance, i'm very happy with the judges' comments. and thank goodness i really did nailed the sexy part. felt relief when i hear the judges' comments one by one. i had an awesome night at ruums. :)

it's burning ! see me strut my thing on stage !

when the host - juliana was about to announce the bottom 4, my heart beats rapidly for once.

juliana : " jimmy. becky. (oh my god) yuz. noor. "

i stepped forward and my heart sank.

juliana : " i'm sorry, but this week, U GUYS ARE SAFE ! CONGRATULATIONS U ARE STILL WITH SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE ! "

i stoned. a rush of excitement suddenly wake me up ! the next thing i do was jumping and hugging with with jimmy, yuz and noor. i'm really happy for that night.

i want to say thanks to all of u that came to support me at ruums as well as those in front of tv. really appreciate the support and i will do my best again for the following week ! thank u ! love u all !

i made it into the top 12 ! thank u so much people !

TOP 14

2007-05-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

First of all, i would like to say THANK YOU so so so so so much to all of u guys who voted n supported me on the previous show (17th may 2007). Frankly, i was rather sad n disappointed when i'm announced to be in the bottom 4 but on the other hand, i was really really really THANKFUL n GLAD to be given another chance to stay in the show. Therefore, i will try my very best to stay strong n do my best so that i won't let my family, friends n fans down. Once again, THANK YOU!!!!!

Ok, more details about previous week's show. Dennis n i danced techno, a dance which is mainly coordination of hands n body. It was an interesting dance with a techno song. Though, we didn't really get good comments from the judges. Then, I did a short solo dance after Juliana announced that i'm one of the bottom 4. My heart was beating so fast, as if it'll jump out anytime when she took some time before telling who got eliminated. Sadly, Alice n Chris was emliminated. I felt so lucky to be one of the top 14 n will work even harder ;)

It has been another tiring week full of activities. We went to CC to chat in the forum of rentak sejuta after dinner on friday. We had fun talking about FOOD actually haha. We were chatting about CHOCOLATES hehe my favourite :) Then, we also attended our very 1st roadshow in Times Square yesterday (19th may) 3pm-5pm. We danced n had fun meeting our fans n the people there. TERIMA KASIH for coming to support us. It meant a lot to us n hope to meet u guys ASAP.

On the next day, i was lucky to get to attend Joyclub's Workshop & Annual Dance Party 2007. I was so happy to see my line dance teacher, colleagues, friends n students. I really really enjoyed dancing on the dance floor again with my beloved friends ;p however, i didn't get to stay for long because i had to go for dance practises.

one big family!!!!

dennis,my friends, students n i.

Stay tuned to 8tv n log on to http://www.rentaksejuta.com/

PS. I miss my family n friends so i take this opportunity to say thank you for believing in me all this while. Don't worry, i'll take care so pls take good care of urselves too.

love,
Rebecca

top 16...

2007-05-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

It's down to top 16 this week. Next week will be the 3rd live show already. We sheard some tears these few weeks seeing our friends leave. Dance trainings are tiring but i'm still trying my very best to not let my family n friends down. So, do watch So You Think You Can Dance every Thursday and support us :)

hello again !

2007-05-04T16:48:00.000+08:00

top 20 last dinner together

yesterday was the 1st live show. i was so nervous because i was the 1st one to come out and intro myself. we reached ruums at 7.30am just to practice whole day long. Dimitri came frm las vegas to perform, and i took a pic wif him :D

the clock hits 9.30pm, here comes the live show. (x.x) hehehe
i'm out from the backstage, and i saw A WHOLE BUNCH OF SUPPORTERS, HOLDING MY BANNERS. O.o" it says "DANCE BECKY DANCE !" & " I LOVE YOU ". xD

OWH MY GAWD. i was so surprised and so touched. thank u for all ur support! thank u thank u to my 3F! fans, friends & family.

throughout the night, the only thing that was in my mind was, i have to be fierce, sexy, wild !! just like a "Red clothe" to Dennis, my dance partner. in a blink of an eye, the whole dance ended with cheers and screams. i was glad that the judge said it was superb, that i did a great job, even thou it wasn't my style of dance. :D

after packing up all our stuff, we went back to hotel and makan. that's all for this week !

so remember to catch up with me next week, tune in to 8TV at 9.30pm SHARP !! dun be late ;)

if u want to come support me at ruums KL, pls get the tickets from all kinds of way u can think of. or just stay tune with 8tv and u might just get to win a couple of them. cheers !

So You Think You Can Dance?? -1st week-

2007-05-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

I have been in the training for 1st week of So You Think You Can Dance Top 20 live show for almost 2 weeks.. I have been practicing dance with my partner most of the time... Apart from that, we, the Top 20s also took this opportunity to get to know each other better n sometimes even share our dance experiences... So, do not be frightened when u see us acting like a bunch of kids talking n laughin together haha... lastly, support us yea !