Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Time is UP!!

dear blog.. after btg final, i'm out to Singapore the next dayn start my holiday there with baby..
we went to batam on monday, n we went for para-sailing, banana boat, n jetski.. it was a wonderful holiday i ever have in this year.. not only that we went for 2hours spa..is quite expensive but worth the price bcoz is really relaxing n calm feeling inside the spa place..don feel like leaving the placce bcoz i feel so peaceful n calm.. then on wedenesday we back to SG n we went to PS cafe for x'mas dinner bcoz baby flying off to Melbourne the next day n only be back on Christmas day.. so we have early christmas dinner.. but i didn't went back KL after he left to Melbourne but i hang around at SG for 2more days. so i stay at my adek house *reela* thank you so much for taking care of me..

On 25th went to town walk around n met up with my betina Wai fong one of my kl friend for tea break.. then accompany her to Lucky Plaza n bought a archos something like ipad.. then off i go to changi airportto fetch my baby.. then we went back home n rest then out for dinner..
woooohoo we went to Newton Circus for dinner, we had crab n seafood.. after dinner, we go to rebels with all his clubbing kaki.. been so long i never club, i just can't stop dancing n drinking.. i feel like i'm back to my old days.. have so much fun n happy bcoz clubbing with my baby.. :)
then the next day i'm going back to KL bcoz he is flying to darwin.. send him off to airport n off i go back KL..

Now i'm back to kl i'm just keep myself busy with all the dance shows n classes.. but my mind is missing him so much.. can't stop thinking about him.. When all this things start i'm getting paranoid again.. for almost 2days i'm so pyscho n krazy over words.. after all this, i need to tell myself to STOP being so paranoid n pycsho, this is not Rebecca Lee.. I'm not like tat n i hate to be paranoid over stuff around.. So i told myself, i need to Stop all this rubbish thinking n back to my track..being a happy go lucky me with no stress but happy life...remember people telling me alots of stuff about life,love, career.. remember every single things ppl tell me is a advise n do help me alots.. i really wish i have someone to share my problem., but somehow is so hard to share sometimes.. i hate sharing but sometimes i love to share when it come to joys n happiness..
my feeling is just unstable.. STOP IT!!! *SLAPLet's bring back the Rebecca Lee everyone use to know.. the happy go lucky, krazy, laugh like nobody busy, always hyperactive, smile all the time, energy level always on the top.. bring it back to my soul...PRAY!!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Soul Krazy xD

It has been a very hard rocky road that i fight for the past few months, it really test my patience, emotion, determination, it can be say a life VS love test..however i fight till the end.. never thought i will but i did.. unbelieveable :)

A journey with my girls Soul Krazy has alots of up n down, but we manage to go through this n we are rewarded the CHAMPION ASTRO BATTLEGROUND 2010.. the first girls group even win this competition after 3years.. we ended this year with alots of joy n smile as a group bcoz we are just 1year baby growing together as dance friends to close mate.. I really feel so sorry bcoz there so much things happen when final moment but i still stay strong just losing idea most of the time but i really appreciate n thanks all of u for being so patience n believe me as ur leader.. I really love u all bcoz u all respect me as the most old one :X n also as a leader for SK.. With all this we are together n battle up the way up to be the top.. no matter how much discrimination we get, we are still standing tall bcoz what we have is *Girls PoWer* ..
I wish a better year for SOUL KRAZY..
A year started with Showdown To Battleground.. we really prove to everyone we can n so do ourself we are strong enough to stand on our feet.. I love u girls so much..:)

Monday, December 13, 2010

bad day or good day??

My saturday is so wonderful bcoz i spend the whole day with my girls at Genting.. the exciting part is we are dancing for IZ as opening act for Wondergirls Concert.. yoohoo!!we went to rehearsel at 2.45pm to arenaof star, we are there the wondergirls are having their rehearsel.. we seated at the front n watch them rehearsel but the whole session was like no camera n no video.. is like :(( haizz.. but was cool looking at them..
after they are done then our turn on stage rehearsel,check in the room, make up, dress up,dinner, gossip then ready for shown standby backstage.. we all cam-whore then talk nonsense with IZ, Hisham, SK n others..was so happening n fun :) after the perfomancewe went back to the room to change n back down to watch the concert but was a bit late we only able to see them sing NObody, Tell Me, 2 different tears.. they remix this few songs so nice.. i like fall in love to Wondergirls.. :)after the concert we were invited to their after party,then we went to chill at McD then up to Resort Cafe to party..
The after party was a bit quite bcoz everyone busy eating n talking.. the foods is goodn nice.. best part is Wondergirls was like in front of us taking their food then talk to us saying they are happy to be in malaysia..DOPE!! they are so friendly.. love them so much :) after the party we went back to the room n start our costume session for BTG.. haha was funny n tired but is fun..

Then i wake up at 8.30am in the morning (12/12/2010) pack everything then back to kl..
teach my class then back home to rest but can't rest bcoz mind is full of shitzz again.. haizzz
then later at 5.30pm went out to fetch my sister n went to Pyramid to have our dinner n shop for awhile.. but when we about to go back my car got problem the temperature shoot up n the water boil so hot.. so i stop the car at the side n open up the cover so nervous forgotten the water will splash like fountain so kena lecuh kaki..DEM!! too bad can't go back so went back to the mall n have dessert at HOneymoon til like 9.30pm.. went back to the car still the same.. so i park my car at the mall n ask my friend to fetch me back.. haizzz what a bad day???

my friend fetch me n my sister back home.. once i'm back i quickly call my baby n talk to him almost an hour.. i cry like baby again.. OH GOSH!! what is wrong with me? am i facing too much problem n stress? or just too happy that i can talk to u n cry of happiness? i'm still confused..
but was a bad day after all.. thanks for waited me to be back home safe, talk to me, advise me, listen to my problem.. it been months we never talk like tat.. just at the time i needed u, u call me so i actually shed tear at the 1st call but was too noisy u can't hear it.. but at last i still cry like baby.. haizz :'(
thank u so much baby..

Wednesday, December 8, 2010



everything should come to an end..


from 12th november everything started with a small discovery n things become a bit cold a emotion go upside down, feelings go mix up all the time..

on 15th i decide to talk it out so i don feel uneasy n hope things come to an end...but everytime when i stand strong, there will always something hit me hard n make me fall down to the bottom again..

on the 25th i decide to talk it out again bcoz things just don settle in a way as it promise..
then another promise n trust that make me strong n tough.. but it just last me 1day n 27th another thunder strike me so hard, i fall down to the ground so badly n couldn't stand up.. i have nightmare, migraine, appetite totally gone case, feeling n emotion in a mess.. i hold this mess for few days till 2nd Dec.. i can't hold it anymore n i talk it out again.. everything seem fine n settle.. i'm cool down n steady again..

on 3rd Dec i see u n i feel so peaceful n calm.. everything seem so bright in me, i'm charge up to dance,eat n play.. but i just can't stop myself from thinking every moment we spent is not moment to me anymore.. maybe i don feel secure anymore..:(
on the 4th i blast like rain storm on the nite til 3am.. it ended with promises n secure words..
on the 5th i stand up so strong n stop thinking about it anymore.. but i discover somethings that make me blank,heartbeat stop for a minute n back to my 100% thinking again..
on my 35minutes journey n 3weeks of thinking.. i tell myself n make a very painful decision..
around 20mins before u leave, i take a deep breath n say a last goodbye with peaceful, soft voice..no high pitch,scold or emotion.. just a soft gentle bye bye..


U choose not to let go.. but i do bcoz there's something i feel in u that make me no longer important in ur life.. i struggle with myself alots after u left..i scream, i shout, i stay hyper, smile, laugh like crazy but inside my mind is u all the time..


i try to stay hard hearted but i just fail of doing it.. all the sms,ur words, ur voice, ur promises keep running around me n the moments keep come to my mind.. i ask myself am i really letting go?i just keep thinking n i decide to talk it out properly face to face..so i make my way to see u.
In the end, i just can't hold myself to be strong n let go instead i want to hold u so tight n don let u go..i hope there will be no more all this crazy moment that i never think it will happen to me..
bcoz if there is i will sure leave it with no good bye..


what i wish now is i can wash all the bad memory n put in a good n sweet memory.. bcoz everytime i walk pass somewhere, something, words spoken, moment we share, things u tell me.. my mind will run somewhere else n i will just stunt for a while.. hope i will end this year with a big smile on my face.. i dowan to have a bad crying moment or heartpain.. pls no more!!
I love u...




Saturday, November 27, 2010

burst...

My day is just getting so down n moody.. never know when will i be the happy crazy becky again..not putting up a fake smile, happy face, laughing even is just so fake sometimes when i think back..i stay so strong but still fall everytime i'm left alone... so needed someone to share my problems but is just seem so hard to get that someone..writing all this out just help me to release my moment of tears n sad..i feel my blog is my tearing moments... use to be my glory n happy now it turn to be so rainy, thunder blog..haizz:(

Appetite is slowly catching up but still won;t eat sometimes..today feel my heartbeat so unstable bcoz when i was resting my heart beat super fast n i was like catching up with my breathing.. why is all this happening to me?it's because of that bloody problem still stuck in my mind.. is just attack me everytime when i think about it, when i'm alone.. PLS!! help me get rid of that stupid problem.. i still lost somehow in this problem.. feeling is upside down n unstable.. u can see me day dreaming, pale face, not concentrate.. is just bcoz my mind keep flying all those words n problems..

I slap,scold, scream at myself to stop but is just keep going.. BTG is just 2week but my mind is just not stable.. i feel myself useless now in SK.. can't get things done in right time.. i hope i don dissappoint my girls.. i'm fighting hard to stay strong for Final.. is just seem super hard for me..
really need so much help n encouragement... sorry girls.. i will get back to my krazy track ASAP!

i'm like a cry baby nowadays.. cry when drive alone, cry when listen to music, when i see moments, think of words... when will my tears end??i really want to have the hardcore heart that don shed a tears.. how come i become so soft hearted n cry baby?? WHY? WHY??
i know why but i just donno how to stop all this... i can even while teaching dance class suddenly something pass through my mind n my eyes,nose all turn red but lucky i cover line good, none of my student find out.. but is getting harder everyday to control my emotion..
all i want is to gain back all the moment of trust.. if not i will try to run away from all this problem will my best runaway..

life is so complicated..

colorful or darkness

I feel my surround has turn so dark.. i can't cope with it anymore, other than just stay strong go through the competition.. what i wish now is to have the energy, strength, idea to dance on my Final..why things like to happen on wrong timing? why things need to turn out to be so bad?why can't i just stand strong on my both feet n don care about it...ARGHHHH!!!!

My colorful n wonderful life has turn to colorblind, fear, phobia, physco, not confident.. i hate this feeling..i want to fight back the old me strong, confidence, happy go lucky, gila gila, sampat till the max. i have tune down so much, it's bcoz of my age or just things around me is making me stress.. i need a solution for all this if not i soon will be admitted to *CHOI** just maybe..

I have a day rest with my baby on 25th Nov 2010.. i totally take a off day n we just go shopping, watch movies, have nice lunch n dinner.. it's really been long i have a nice PAK TOH day with baby.. everything seem so sweet that i smile,laugh, n feel so peaceful.. we go to times square n shop for OBEY shirt n yes indeed we bought 3Obey shirts n saw Nigel..haha so conincident..
then we hit down to Pavilion cinema to watch Megamind n i laugh bcoz there are few part that is so funny.. then we shop around Pavilion n farenheit 88.. we when to Uniglo, baby bought me a cute jumper suit, i look like a small girl when i wear it.. hahaha can;t imagine it..then dinner at Madam Kwan's yummy yummy nasi bonjari is just so nice... after everything we go home is already 11plus.. back home we watch dance clip n Airbender but i fall asleep before the movie start bcoz i think i just feel so peace n calm when i put my head on my baby chest.. i can sleep well n no nightmare.. thanks baby for the lovely day.. I love u so much <3<3

I hope there will be no more nightmare, stress n emotion down 99%..
i feel i can't take it anymore..
wish for everything to over soon...

Can't wait for 2011..

Saturday, November 20, 2010

health down 99%

day by day...it has been a week, i feel so down n emotion down to 99%..eating has become so difficult to me, heartbeat abnormal, giddy, shivering n cramp..:(
everyday i control my emotion so i won't just blast it out, i just wish i can be alone all the time, but is hard bcoz i'm stuck with BTG competition.. NOW i just wish everything can be over, so i can get back to my normal track where i'm happy go lucky everyday..

Everytime when i'm with my girls, i will laugh, go krazy, so tat i won't think so much, but in the end i will still be alone n think again.. :'( looking at them i feel so peace n happy for them, bcoz they can share their problem with all the friends, write it out in FB status, or in their blog.. why can't i just be like them? i always keep all the problem inside me n settle it slowly with thinking about it, end out i'll stress out n burn out.. maybe the way i grow up is different that make me a secret keeper, everything settle sendiri..

It has been a week, i didn't eat proper food, or can say a proper meal.. but still hanging strong bcoz i tell myself not to collapsed n fall.. hope i can hang til BTG final.. i can;t believe myself can be so skinny.. losing weight like nobody business.. i dowan all this but is happening to me..
if can i want to scream out loud * Rebecca can't hold any longer n stay any stronger*I WANT TO GIVE UP!!!! but i keep holding back bcoz i believe in it...

people always say "what goes around,come around* i believe in it now, is a life karma that go in circle..

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

'' life ''

Life is always full of sweet dreams that everyone wish like Fairy Tale.. But does this fairy tale appear in so called reality life..might happen if u are one in a million lucky girl choosen by the GOD to be in the fairy tale story..

Too bad i choose not to be the fairytale lady, bcoz i got my dream to chase..
I chase this so call dream for many years n i have make my name, fame, in this few years n i'm happy i got so many friends, fans n student who support me in so many ways..
i have aunty n uncle that sponsor me to compete in Worlds.. Student that appreciate me so much n make little present that is so memoriable.. (crying) i think i have make my life full of beautiful dreams n great success..What else do i ask for??

i think nobody know that this strong lady know as Rebecca Lee a.k.a Becky Lee.. Is such a failure in her Love Life.. I can be so cool n steady in all form but when i'm facing Love problem i can collapsed n fall just like tat.. why? can someone help me with this? i dowan to go through al this over n over again, is just so tiring.. being faithful, loyal, lovely to someone u love izzt wrong,i just don understand sometimes.. I just feel like going back to the old me (drink n club everynite), hang out with all the friends til late nite, don stay at home all the time, don care about people feeling.. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? i have turn into a good girls that stay at home watch tv, eat house food, be back home before 12am,don go club drink.. this is call LOVE POWER!!
From a girl that doesn't wear short pant out from the house, has become liking short pant, singlet, wearing contact lens, make up.. what have i turn into.. Can't believe myself..

I just wish i can hold on till BTG over..i dowan to dissapointment everyone that look up at Soul Krazy and support us so much.. but i really can't really think or work things out when i'm really emotion break down..i need help so much but i donno who can i ask for, all i can do is cry it out..
Heart pain, stress, is just crazy bombing action to me.. i think i'm going to lose weight like hell.. my face going to turn pale like paper..the crazy is i didn't eat for 2days just drink water but still can perform 3routines with Soul Krazy for my birthday party, the most crazy madness thing i ever do..after party straight drrive to Singapore to see my baby.. turn speechless with my action sometimes..

My baby bought me iphone 4 as birthday present first time ever receive such an expensive present from my love one.. been going through my birthday with no present, no celebration, no love one around with me for so many years.. should i say I"m stupid or just being dumb.. maybe is just written story life on REBECCA LEE.. this year should say the most happiest year ever..
suprise from SK, my student at Evonne Sttudio, Astro, my big birthday party at Hai Thiam Lo with Famous Crew singing me cantonese version B'day songs, Old school Brothers, students, family, aunties, uncles.. the most wanted person in my list not there (MY BABY) wanted to shed tears in the party but i manage to hold my tears n smile through the 5hours party..Party was great n amazing.. hope i can do it again..

for now..All i wish is i can think something better for BTG final then all the rubbish shit problem i'm facing..haizz.. pray for the best now..

TIRED!! EMO!! STRESS!! F**K UP**

Friday, November 12, 2010

Birthday Surprises!!

November started with a big smile on my face bcoz Soul Krazy has made their way to Battleground Final 2010.. yoohooo.. but the tiring part is about to start..

On the 8th nov after the semi final round 3.. we need to go for a training with the 3judges at sri petaling is such a tiring day.. i sweat like pipe water in the class.. demmm!!! classes ended late bcoz we start late so i didn't attend Loose Joint workshop bcoz i got class at 7.30pm at Sri Damansara.. so i left at 6.15pm.. then i straight went to my class ended late bcoz was busy cleaning all the steps for my party performance.. then went home for shower..

At 10.30pm, i receive a sms from my sister asking to go out for a drink.. seem tat i have no date or anything so i went out to Oldtown at 11pm to meet her up with my mum n niece.. so we eat,talk..i was busy online seeing the time pass..
I was looking at the clock on my netbook hit 12am.. i was like is my birthday.. but is will always be the same every year.. boring, with dance classes.. sleep..without any celebration..
When i was busy replying all the wishes on Facebook, suddenly Seven,Cynthia, Yvonne Kan n Von appear in front of me singing Birthday SOng so loudly while holding a 2box of cupcakes with my name on it BECKY, the whole oldtown can hear their voice..I was like *what a surprise*i can't believe my eyes standing in front of me is my 4girls*.. In my heart i was like is this a Dream or Reality..the first cake n surprise that my dance crew ever do it for me.. I feel like crying but bcoz we always *SAMPAT* so i act very normal.. hehe
But i'm very happy n speechless.. :X then after eating the cupcakes all of us go back.. Von n Yvonne went to my house to sleep..my birthday my room is fill up with friends, loves and laughter.. :)

is 9th november my birthday,i wake up at 6am bcoz i think if we 3 wake up at the same time who can us the toilet first == .. so i wake up shower everything then von turn n last yvonne..
we left house at 7.15 n reach astro at 8am.. we makeup, hairdo, breakfast, shoot, gossip..
astro n my girls again surprise me with another BOX OF CUPCAKES.. with all the top4 singing me birthday songs.. i feel so paiseh but also KAM TONG.. in my life this is my first time going through a birthday with so many surprises.. after we finish, we left to sunway for lunch.. on my way there, my baby call me n sing me a Birthday Songs bcoz he is so far away from me n can't celebrate or be with me..i just patiently wait for him to celebrate with me when he is free..

5 of us was sitting at yu jia for lunch while discuss about BTG final.. but when we having discussion my eyes is like closing.. cannot tahan i straight tell my girls i need to go back n sleep..
so i went home n sleep for 3hours n wake up 5pm.. had my dinner at home bcoz mum cook.. after tat i drive my way to mahkota cheras for class til 9pm.. After class i go to Royal Phanthom for practice with Soul Krazy for Miss Nina show... practice ended at 11.50pm..pack everything n i go to my car n drive myself home..

In the car i see the clock hit 12am.. n i tell myself My Birthday is over.. i'm one year older...
What should i do next year? what i want to achieve? what else do i wish for?
I have a very tiring, but happy day with my girls... althought sometimes i stress like in hell bcoz of competition, n feel like scream n scold when routine cannot be done n clean...But i just can't do it bcoz i know all of us are doing our best to prove ourself..that's why the name SOul Krazy suit us so much.. haha :p

I LOVE U ALL MY GIRLS SOUL KRAZY!!!!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

end of october :(

30th OCT.. today i wake up at 7.30am.. then pack everything, shower n went out to class at Bukit Jalil at 9am.. lucky i reach there on time bcoz i came out from the house late.. after class i drive to hartamas for my 2nd class at 11am.. after 11am class drive back to bukit jalil for my 3rd class.. wah i feel so sleepy and tired driving up n down the same road.. tick tok!! 3pm class ended n i quickly take my stuff and go to sunway to pick up cynthia..but when i sitdown in my car my phone receive a msg (cynthia no transport to go sunway then blah blah blah) so i drove to her house but the traffic is like WTH!!! so jam everywhere.. so i make a lots of turn n shortcut end up reach her place at 3.40pm.. VROMMMM!! i drive to sg besi toll to meet yvonne..My driving skill still KENG* reach there at 4.05pm.. hahaha DOPE!!



then our journey to bahau begin.. seremban highway was jam bcoz accident but we managed to reach at 5pm as promised but the aunty late.. ADUI!!! so on n on.. then we drive to BAHAU.. is so freaking tired driving bcoz is very far we reach BAHAU HOtel at 7pm.. total 4hours in the car...

then we practice, eat,dance, cam-whore, make noise, n freeze..hahaha was a fun outing...

after show was like 10plus.. so i drive my way to Singapore..

but bahau road is freaky bcoz very dark.. then we reach to a junction yvonne take her turn back to KL i go to SG.. but i feel so scary alone in the car driving such a creepy road.. bcoz when i look at the back mirror i can;t see anything just dark not even a single car on that roaD... scared to dead for almost 1hour..after an hour i reach to the main highway so i took around 2hours drive to reach SG.. manage to reach at 1am..FUNNY thing, when i reach custom as usual they check. so the police ask me where am i going .. I say going *CLARK QUAY*..then the police ask me to stop at aside open all the door, wide down all window, open car boot, engine boot.. then they start check my car.. i feel like my car kena rogol from 6policemen..so they ask ne n i just very chill n talk to the policemen.. after few minute i'm off to go bcoz my class is full of sneakers, and my private stuff..hahaha.. off i go n check in to the hotel

i reach the hotel i feel so scary but don care just check in, n shower n off i go to Clarke Quay..then when i reacch there n i know why the police will check my car like i'm a criminal.. The people here are so daring, the way they dress themselves up is off the hook.. I drop my jaw..so i park my car at a shopping mall n walk to the bridge to Clark Quay..unbelieveable i see nurses, police,zombies, mummy, batman,superman, frankenstein and a lots of from the creep movies or funny movies.. so i walk around but i just see people in costume, drunk,lying on the floor, vomitted left over, is just like after party.. i'm bored so i drive to 7-11 to buy drinks n took a short walk.. i see the clock is already 4.30am but i still haven't receive the call so i went to orchard n walk a while just everything is close.. my first time go inside a shopping where the music is playing but nobody inside except me.. i feel myself like a small girl lost her way out.. i even play the lift going up and down at orchard central mall.. :P after tat i just drive myself back to hotel..

back to hotel i shower n still waiting for the call.. so boring i just purchase the wifi token to online.. check FB n have a bit of laugh seeing the picture of SK.. but i was too tired to continue waiting so i went to sleep around 5plus.. then wake up at 7,8,9, n 11am up i shower online n blog..
but the connection in the hotel was like arghhh.. after i write everything wanted to post it go back to browser.. i was like ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!... so i went out to orchard n shopping..

My lucky day i reach orchard n i found parking at the public parking.. then i start my shopping to atria, wisma atria, cotton on.. is my first time really shop and buy... can;t believe myself but i'm still feel empty n unhappy when i shop.. maybe bcoz i really still sad about yesterday what happen..so i forget to even eat breakfast n lunch.. then at 5pm my stomach is like calling then i realize i haven't eat the whole day.. so i go to Burger King at Orchard Central to have my meal bcoz they have wifi..yoohoo!!

today is last day of october, then it will be november.. wat i wish is november 9 doesn't appear in calender bcoz i feel so empty on that day every year.. for so many year is always the same classes, competition, n busy busy.. Family, BF, Friends is always belated celebration but still happy that u all make an effort to make tat day a special day..i just use to celebrate it with teaching classes, busy with work,like every normal day.. this year it will be the same too.. but i hope my belated party will be very successful, n everyone who came n make it a special event will be happy also..
i hope everything can go be better from any aspect, finacial, friends, relationship..
i wan to be the happy go lucky me.. i have lost the happy n funny laugh of mine..

after tomorrow, gonna fight hard for BAttleground semi final.. i believe SOUL KRAZY can.. GOGOGOGO!!!!! Becky CHIONG ARRR!!!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I need help & a day rest!!!

Dear Blog.. been few days.. seem like things has already cool down in me or i just want to leave it aside so i can continue with my overloaded work.. i think i just leaving it aside n continue with my girls.. i need to concentrate in BTG.. but my mind is just too much things to handle especially my birthday party.. there are so many people coming and i need to make it a great party bcoz is my 1st time doing it..people are expecting many great shows n things going to happen.. but i'm so clueless now donno even what to do with the decoration?? arghhh!! i need help from my student.. going scream out loud to them to help me out..just hope my party will be the most memorable..

Still feeling abit lost.. maybe thinking too much for BTG storyline, concept, songs n etc make me so freaking tired everyday..everyday go to studio practice also like so restless.. i just hope SK can do the best n bring out the best as a girl group.. is so hard to be a hardcore girls group.. why??? In dance world now, guys can easily make fun of themselves and win the competition,like wear dress, makeup themselve like girls, dance a bit girl style n they will get scream from everyone ..but when come to girls what can we do to get all that?
To choreo a dance routine really needed so much of brain cell to burn just to make a great, wow routine..haizzz :(

i feel so freaking tired... I NEED A DAY BREAK!!!!! if not i will burn myself of before BTG semi final..

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

hate it!!!!!!!

i'm so happy today bcoz i'm going for hair do and also he is going back to SG.. yeahh at last can call n talk for longer time... so morning when to salon at 11.30am.. then waited for the stylist to reach at 12.40pm, sit till my buttock pain.. then the stylish color, highlight n cut my hair.. woohoo new look!! then at 5pm drive to studio at kajang for class end it at 9pm.. then i quickly go home... can't wait to online chat with my baby..

reach home around9.40pm then clean up everything.. he call n say he is going to meet his friend for chit-chat.. so i wait for him to back home n online.. start to get bored then i mix music,watch video, online then so on... clock struck 1am.. i call himn he is still with his friend..
why is he doing all this to me???i'm feel so neglected all in sudden,.. haizzz

i want him to call, bcoz i miss him so much.. i sent him a msg saying i will sleep then end up he never call not even reply sms.. i like sad then cry till cannot breath so i wake up n online again.. suddenly he pop up from msn n call me.. i feel happy but also feel angry.. i got mix up feeling all in sudden.. talk to him but i just cannot hold my emotion then i just *blah everything out* haizz..crying in front of lappie, writing all those sentences, it's really want i want to say to him.. i also donno what am i saying...

i can't continue blogging anoymore.. i have cry till i my eyes swollen n can't see the words,,

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

moody monday

i like monday bcoz i only got 1class to teach.. but donno why i'm not happy today.. maybe bcoz i waited for him to call me till no mood..so i when to sunway for lunch with Yvonne n Von.. bought Mcnugget set n woohoo my favourite french fries is back(spicy mcshaker) yum yum.. but i didn;t finish n pack the nugget for cynthia.. after makan, went for window shopping for a while n Von bought herself a sexy blouse ..*is sexy gila la* :P ..went to studio practice til 4pm bcoz seven got class..after that i lie down on the sofa n i fall asleep.. WTH!! happen to me, fall asleep just like tat..



ARGHH.. so i quickly take my bag n say bye bye to von n cynthia.. i walk to sunway Wong Kok cafe online and have my dinner there.. send music to samson,listen to songs, mix music, choreo,so on til 6.20pm.. so boring sitting there so i went to walk around to find costume..my phone ring, he call n say he just woke up n going out for dinner ask me take care n eat :)

hahaha guess what happen a group of college girls came to me say they are from Lim Kok Wing and they doing fashion project..*of course i'm frighten by them but still help them..



LKW Girl: excuse me, can i take a few picture of you?

me: me?? why me?

LKW Girl: bcoz the way u wear very fashion..

me: huhhh!! ok lor only picture ..

LKW Girl: thank u.. snap snap..

me: that's all.. you're welcome



so my shopping continue.. haha weird thing happen to me again.. too boring n tired walking so i walk to my car n drive to class.. adui the traffic today is so bad everywhere is jam at 7.10pm..

i fall asleep again while driving ar.. reach studio at 8pm.. then i ate tau hua bcoz sister bought for me.. then cha cha time til 9.40pm..



after class, no plan with sister so i went back home, shower everything then online.. life is so boring or i just making it look boring..yeah tomorrow i'm going to dye my hair, cut hair.. wah been so long never pamper myself.. must earn more money to make myself pretty.. stupid face is full of pimple, so oily, hair is like forest.. i must make a beauty plan for myself (massage, facial, hair do)when i can do all that?hope all the finacial problem can come to a end soon..



my baby call me later after i call him a few time.. same thing again he was sleeping when i call him..

haizz.. i think i just worry too much, and i think too much.. * slap * his stomach is playing drum again,that's why he is up n out to buy food n call me at the same time.. :( he call me again after he bought his food.. but only talk for 2mins bcoz wan to budget.. thought he online but the connection got problem, so end up i online talking to myself..is already 1week we talk less than 5mins a day..



i want to have better day.. how can i do it?? i dowan to cry everynight writing blog before sleep.. share some of my problem here.. sleep with many question...haizz :( is just hard..



i just want to get back to where everyone say i"m a happy go lucky girl... she always smile n laugh like laughing buddha..hope the day will come...

Monday, October 18, 2010

Day & Night

IS SUNDAY.. nothing special also.. wake up at 9am, after cleaning up myself i on my lappie and edit music, sync songs, burn songs, watch youtube.. then at 10.20am out i go for my class at Sri Damansara til 1pm, then drive down to Taman Tun for my 2nd class til 3pm.. before 2nd class i went to Secret recipe to buy pasta for my student name Puteri as i promise if she got Champ in her line dance category, Well :) she did it and i'm proud of her.. she is so happy n keep saying "Teacher U buy me pasta, YEAH"..

Class ended at 3.10pm, because they were a bit slow learning the steps.. after tat, as usual don feel like going home early so i went down to Coffee Shop again.. online n call my baby but he didn;t answer my call.. :( waited waited still no call.. then i head back home around 4.30pm.. reach home at 5pm..then clean up n everything.. then he call saying tat he was sleeping n going to pack n fly to cairns soon.. :( after hang up, i cry again maybe bcoz is already few days we never really talk or chat in msn.. i needed him so much here i wish i can tell him what i'm facing n all my problem.. but i know is expensive to talk on the phone so i choose to keep quite n hold it till the day you are back to SG.. Maybe he just didn't know how much i miss him here.. *haizzz stop crying* SLAP*

then here i goes with my lappie, mixing music til 8pm.. then i keep want to go out from the house but was too tired to drive so i search for movie.. woohhoo i found *NIGHTMARE IN ELM STREET* syok gila.. watch till 9.30 then sis sms ask to go out for a drink.. both of us talk nonsense again til 10.30pm.. haha back home n continue watch my movie while online..

movie finish, online boring.. my brain start thinking again.. i'm going crazy if everynight i'm going to face all this.. keep scolding myself once i off the light.. once i lay down on bed my mind just full of question, answer, problem, etc.. then tears...:( just never ending problem.. haizzz

i miss him so much.. need him badly.. all i can do is just WAIT!!!....
:""(

Sunday, October 17, 2010

ouch!!

dear blog.. i been blogging this few days, i think i donno where to share my problem other than write it down here...today saturday 16th oct, i wake up at 9am but it was so hard to get up so i roll myself down to the floor to get myself up from the stupid bed..haha stupid back ache is killing me.. :(

i went out to class at 10.15am but my back is making me sick n tired, end up i sort of like play n dance with the kids then teaching them hop here n there.. i feel so bad to cancel a class bcoz i can;t get anyone to teach and my back is really killing me, make me so uncomfortable the whole day bcoz the studio boss handphone can't call through,message no reply, studio also no phone.. end up i stay at TTDI coffee shop and rest while having my lunch.. i lost my appetite again, sitting at the shop for almost 3hours but i just ate 2breads n a cup of hot coffee.. then at 4pm i teach class till 6pm, the class sort of like down bcoz i can;t even hype myself haizzz... class ended at 6pm then straight i go home..

today is grandpa birthday so mum cook n pray..house so much food but i only eat a small bowl of noodle and i'm dem full.. :) mum,sis went to night market, left me, niece,nephew n brother at home.. wahh my brother was preparing jazzuzi for his son for shower, when he was trying to change his mini swimming truck n discover his son sh*t.. :P so i carry his son take out the diaper than he clean his son buttock.. n i throw the diaper yuckk!! then there goes shower time but me TV time... haha

is already 8pm baby haven't call so worry, call him a few times never pick up.. so waited then he call n say just arrive narita will call me back later..tik tok 9pm sis n brother say go YUM CHA, then we whole family go out for a drink at OldTown White Coffee except dad n sis in law.. drink,talk laugh then baby fall asleep so need to go back home.. reach home at 10.30pm, wow is still early so i on my lappie n there goes mixing music again, while waiting for my baby to call..

why must i wait n stay at home?? can't i be like last time go out till late? club most of the time? go out with friends for a drink, yum cha session, gossip.. what happen to me? maybe i see too much n hear too much.. when ppl drunk they are crazy n do something out of limit n border.. i even see a guy kiss a girls that they just know bcoz they are drunk n playing kissing games.. WTH!!! GUYS!! GIRLS!! all the same... sometimes just donno to trust or not.. i see some couple are so loving but at their back there are so many *BEAUTIFUL* story.. why am i talking so much? **SLAP SLAP** stop thinking so many stupid things.. i think is bedtime..
i stop waiting for his call.. :x

is going to be a long October for me.. hope to get thru it fast...n back pain get better

Friday, October 15, 2010

Tired :X

today i woke up late and late for my line dance class.. but still manage to run into the class and learn a new dance :). class finish at 12.15pm n i plan to have lunch with the aunty end up all got things to do n i am alone at the kopitiam eating my lunch( egg n bread).. so on..

at 1.15pm i left then i was late to Studio n receive msg from Mun2, but when i reach was me,her, von ..i think i usually then earliest but was late..xD practice end at 4.30pm then went for my early dinner at Kim Gary while talking to my baby on MSN..

after dinner when for window shopping with the girls and left for class at 6.30pm... this few days been falling asleep while driving quite scary, i think maybe because keep thinking of battleground music,concept,costume, my party..all this really making me tired n hardly rest..when home after tat, have dinner at home again as mum cook some dishes..

after everything as usual i online, mixing music.. but today i totally get so fed up because one of the group so coincident same song with SK so i need to find a song, rechoreo and rethink the intro..arghhh!!!!! at that moment feel like give up and walk away..

i just hope my idea won't be badly criticise by people.. u can say SK need to improve from here to here not saying we repeat steps n doing the same dem steps.. if so ask all the bboy don do 6steps when that is the basic steps..sometimes i just feel like slapping this people mouth and ask them to SHUT YOUR F**K*** MOUTH!!! i don wish for anything just hope SK will be better from time to time..

today i waited for my baby to reach darwin.. At 3am he call me n say love me n good nite..
i straight down to bed n sleep til the next morning.. is pretty a tired day but still manage to stay till so late :P but happy he call.. hope i get more of your love n care ;X..

Thursday, October 14, 2010

overloaded with stress..

dear blog.. i feel myself quite useless sometimes.. i keep almost all my sadness,frustration,stress and anger and don dare to show it out, the most i write it on my facebook that i cry, i'm tired, fed up, stress.. what really happen to me i don even share in my blog.. i think i should change myself to share my feeling of sad not only happiness..
i feel myself over stress recently with Battleground, my birthday party, dance classes, performance, shows n etc.. i want to ask for help but i know there is no one to help me other than myself..

lately been crying alots at nite before sleep maybe because i don get much attention from my love one n stress..i just wan to share all my problem, stress n everything but is just too expensive to talk on phone sometimes.. even in MSN u are not 100% attention on me sometimes..maybe u are busy n you don get much time to spend with your family,friends n feel left out with whatever happen time to time.. i'm too far apart from where u are so i won't complain..

haizz..i really cracking my brain every nite listening to music n finding ideas.. i just need company like talk on msn, FB just to chill me down.. but what i get is listening to music till late nite n get my neck muscle harden n pain.. arghh!!! Classes are getting more and i'm getting body ache..i need massage but where is the time for me to do so.. everyday wake up eat my breakfast, then go Studio practice, eat my lunch n dinner then go for class, back home on lappie start mixing music till late.. wish all this won't just flush down to drain.. i just wish for the best for my girls Soul Krazy to be in TOP.. i'm happy SK are growing with more girls..

what i wish now is my back,my knee can recover asap.. really need to see chiro soon, i can really feel it.. pray for the best to come..

Sunday, August 22, 2010

August 1..
My life is always full of adventure.. today i go to teach my class from 11.30am til 2.30pm then back home start to pack my stuff n out for dinner..after dinner i go to KLIA for my flight to UK manchester.. hmm.. this whole trip is sponsor by Bryan Ang a uncle who see i got great pontential in dancing..my flight is Etihad airline so i have a transit at Abu Dahbi 12am.. is quite a boring trip bcoz i took the flight alone.. to Abu dahbi is 6hrs 55mins.. then transit 2hrs n to Manchester 7hrs 25mins.. I just use to travel alone.. NO FEAR!!! i reach *UK* is still 1st but malaysia is already 2nd Aug.. be the 1st to reach *UK* n waited for the others to arrive bcoz all are from different flight..
All Arrive then off we go to city n our hotel to check in, by the time we reach all the shops n mall is close @@ boring.. when for dinner n back hotel :(



August 2
Morning 9am wake up.. might be the sky is bright up by 5am.. can;t really sleep well.. at 10.3oam Mike come n fetch all of us to a community center to practice our dance.. We were there practice for 3hours.. wahh!!! a bit crazy for the 1st day of practice.. after that we go for Dim Sum at Restaurant Tai Wu around 2pm.. Might be all of us too hungry we order too much bcoz i don eat pork n also seafood, :P mr.Albert n mr.bryan n ms.sherlyn need to finish it.. hahaha.. after meal we go for a walk around bcoz almost all the shop is closing..but we were still on time to drop by at Mark & Spencer n get some foods.. i get myself berry fruits, cookies, n chocolate.. :) nothing much to walk so go back hotel.. But at nite Mike come n look for us, but only me n bryan go out for a drink with him n walk around in Manchester.. snap some picture here n there.. back hotel,watch tv n sleep..

August 3
Morning wake up 6am, 7am can't remember can't really sleep there..Haizz i go shower (ARGHHH blood)pms in UK..HAIZZ!! no mood but hungry so i make a cup of milo from KL woohoo!! then eat my M&S cookies actually is like my 3days breakfast..haha no wonder i so skinny althought i holiday in UK.. then at 10.30am mike come n fetch us to CC again for practice.. then lunch again at Restaurant Tai Wu..walk around again then back hotel sleep.. BORING!!!

August 4
Same like every morning..eat my cookies then practice.. but this time we finish practice earlier n have our lunch earlier too.. woohoo!! at last i get to walk around manchester.. so i walk around n find clothes,shoes (adidas,puma,supra,nike,nike air troupe) so many shoes but some are quite expensive,some like weird looking, some are so nice but dem expensive.. so i just walk everyshop n calculate n think which to get.. after whole day of shopping i get 4sweat pants, 4leg warmers, 2blouse, n some chocolate..on our back hotel we walk quite a few different street just to see what shop around our hotel area..YEAH!! there is a dance studio name Sunshine..my itchy leg just can't stoop me from going in..XD so i ask what classes n how much then i plan to go tomorrow..bcoz today tired so i go back hotel n sleep..

August 5
As usual my morning routine, then lunch but this round much more earlier..woooo!! after lunch, i run to arndale shopping mall, walk n search for shoes but i can;t find what i want.. been looking for it since they day i arrive manchester..but i fail :(( so i decided to give up..
then i shop for what i think is worth the money.. i go Footlocker n get myself a Nike Air Jordan, n my sister a Nike High Cut Dunk.. woohhoo!! :) then walk to another shoe shop name Fit To Dance go there just to check out the dance shoes.. WAHH WAHH WAHH!! guess what i found air troupe last pair n is the yellow color air troupe that i wanted so much..what a great day!! double happiness.. after buying all the shoes i feel like carry a few KG luggage..hahahaha so go back hotel, by that time is already 5.30pm.. i pack my luggage by estimating how much can i still put it if i were to shop..ERMMM..
time hit 6.30pm i go to my class at sunshine then the 2uncle want to follow me..haha so they sit at a cornern n watch.. my class is 7pm-8.30pm..so freaking tired!!! but FUN :) this 2uncle tell me that the class ppl can't fight with my energy so i say *rebecca- famous Hyperactive n energatic ma* then mike come to studio n fetch the 3muskeeter to a line dance class where i can't remember the place.. so tired i can't even move so i sit at there for 1hour 30mins.. around 11.30pm only i'm back to hotel..SO TIRED!! i quickly go shower then pop to my bed n sleep..

August 6
Today is a different day bcoz the competition start today.. Morning we go to the event place n register n take our number.. hmm my no 292.. not bad add up all DIE!!hahahaha but for me is lucky number..i go to watch the competition by the junior bcoz mine is on saturday n sunday.. but the 2 uncle dissappear they went to Line dance workshop.. around 1,30pm we go eat lunch at Tai Wu again.. SIEN!!! after lunch i was tireed maybe PMS so i go walk around n back to hotel.. at nite we go back to Palace Hotel for party but quite boring so we go off around 10plus but everyone like hungry so we eat supper at Red Chillies Restaurant.. then as usual after foods back hotel n sleep :( bored!!

August 7
Today mike fetch us to Hotel bcoz today is me n bryan duo competition day n also choreography day.. But it started with choreography..is quite scary bcoz i need to dance alone n show my choreogarphy to the 5judges n others contenstant.. hmm but i'm happy bcoz after i dance the ppl do clap.. :) after that we go for lunch again at Tai Wu.. n back to hotel for change n back to Palace Hotel for the Duo comp.. Bryan is so nervous keep drag me to practice at the practice room till he sweat like fountain..hahahaha.. there goes the duo n done.. RELAX!! we back to hotel n rest...

August 8
Today is the day i can;t really sleep well n nervous.. i wake up late maybe bcoz my back pain.. hmm scary :X then i quickly take my shower n make up, ate 5bars of chocolate n off we go to Palace Hotel.. We manage to get quite a nice seat.. so we practice before we are call out to the floor.. the competition started at 10am n end at 5pm.. So tired!!! After we are done, we make a quite change n off we go to Tai Wu again for dinner.. Hungry man just realize i never eat lunch but only chocolate..hahahahaha then at 7pm we pay the bills n back to Palace Hotel for the awards ceremony... everyone with costume so beautiful.. the ceremony start with the young division.. so wait n wait.. *TENG TENG TENG* for the my division all the way from Malaysia *Rebecca Lee* woohoo me Champion happy :))))) .. n also the duo *Champion* ..my choreography 3rd.. really surprise me...
Go back hotel carry all the trophy I just feel HAPPY :)
mini celebration in the room, uncle bryan bring champange, me n albert out to buy chicken.. have a great makan session.. hahaha then i start packing my stuff bcoz going London the next day..;)

August 9
Morning 10am we go breakfast with Mike, he buy us breakfast so kind of him.. ;) then back to hotel n fetch us to the train station with all the over weight luggage.. hahahaha
By 1.35pm train arrive n off we go to LONDON.. is 2hrs n 3omins trip.. guess what i did.. i on my netbook n watch dance video for that 2hours.. oh gosh!! the worst thing is happening after that.. Albert book a hotel at King Cross road but the train stop at Euston Station (main station).
imagine 4 ppl (2male, 2female) drag 7luggage and walk from road to road to find the hotel.. i can feel my shoulder n hand is so pain bcoz my luggage is weight 25kg..argghhh!! n another one is small one not mine.. at last after 20mins we found it.. already hungry n tired!!
the counter also another newcomer, waited for 25mins just to check in..HUNGRY!!!
check in all wanted to rest so i need to wait,, around 6.30pm we go for dinner at Chinese restaurant (CHINATOWN) not nice n expensiive.. YUCK!! Walk around london for 2hours manage to window shopping at Lily White, then tralfagar square, picadilly, oxford circus..
after all that i'm hungry again so we have dessert..YUMYUM YUM!! at 11pm we go back hotel..bcoz worry no buses or train.. that is my last day in london..

August 10
I plan to go Camden Town at 9.30am..but the others want to follow so i think it will be a very rush trip.. but they hungry so we eat breakfast near our hotel, after breakfast only we go camden town is already 10.30am..my flight is 2.55pm..woohoo!! Crazy girl
We take train to camden town.. once we reach i say we go our own ya.. i use 20mins to walk in n see all the shoes shop in camden town just to find the shoes,but still can't find..HAIZZ give up!! so i just get my mummy the calcium pill n find them.. i'm really F1 found them in 5mins hahaha then walk with for 20mins then i get myself a speaker bag woot!! NICE n Cheap!! then off i go back hotel to take my luggage n off i go to airport.. at 11.30am i say bye bye to them..
take the train back hotel n drag the stupid luggage to train station..
While dragging the bag i was hoping i have someone beside to help me.. Why?? i always got to walk alone the hard way.. haizz carry n walk till my hand turn read n hungry.. still rush bcoz is already 12.30pm by the time i reach the station.. then i quickly carrry the luggage down to the Underground train..waited for 2min n the train come.. In the train there is no seat but lucky got a place for me to stand with my luggage for the 45mins journey to Terminal 4..Run to the counter of VAT so many ppl n is late.. so i run back up to the check in counter but lucky no one.. so i very quickly get myself check in but now i'm worry my luggage over weight.. it does 26.5kg but the counter guy is kind never charge me..my hand luggage also weight 4kg.. backpack..wah really feel like crying man..so many bag n heavy some more :( ..
then go through all the x-ray check, immigration check. I go get some chocolate for my student, granny,sister,mummy, n family from the duty free shop.. tick tick 2.10 i go in the flight bcoz i'm so tired,hungry n sleepy.. i sleep almost all the way to Abu Dahbi.. then back to KL..
reach KL on Aug 11 2pm..
receive msg from my sister saying she will be late due to public holiday.. i told her i got class at 4.30pm n i shed tear bcoz why must it happen to me after all the tiredness i go through :(.. but she still make her way to airport n fetch me, she reach at 3pm n safetly fetch me home by 3.3opm..she also F2 driver..hahaha
reach home unpack everything then pack abit for SG trip tomorrow n ate a bowl of rice..By 4pm off i go to Joyclub for class..reach at 4.30pm teach my lil matthew n claudia til 6pm..
very quickly i pack my stuff n offi go to Setapak Freedom for my new jazz class at 7pm..then run again n drive to Sri Damansara Evonne Studio for class at 8.30pm n meet up cynthia at 10.30pm til 12am.. reach home 12.30am shower, pack my stuff then online chat with my girls von n cynthia wat to bring til like 3am.. DOPE!! i really crazy :P

*i hope my life can be more different*just feel tired sometimes**

i will continue my August 12 .. bcoz is a crazy day with the girls n my trip to Singapore..XD

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Short Holiday in SG

Day is getting so close to my competition but my mind still planning so many thingss (baby,shoes,classes) haizz.. but today 27th july i woke up n rush to sg.wang to pick up my costume then ate my lunch alone bcoz my girls von kena buat magic show,then cynthia got problem at home,end up i ask yvonne go teman the BF.. so i went to eat MCD chicken alone..yumyum..:)

after tat still need to go sunway studio to practice with Bryan for the duo dance til 6pm.. wah so late i rush to my class at freedom end up i was 30mins earlier so i went to buy fruits n 3mini lotus bun.. after class my sister, haizz always last minute ask me to fetch her go sentral.. end up after drop her at kl sentral only i can start my journey to Singapore.. is already 9.30pm when i drop her,then i pump petrol thought of buying food but scare late, after pump petrol *piu* of i go..wah suprised i never knock off half way but hungry all the way..XD

Reach costum already 12plus.. lost my way some bcoz took the wrong turn, end up reach hotel at 1plus.. haizz scary part is park at a mall where is so creepy n scary the carpark area, n got to walk down the stair alone n see so a *bapa AYAM* eee gross...but funny looking bcoz he botak n fat.. XDXD then walk to hotel check in n **fuu** at last i'm here but when i look at the time is already 2am.. i quickly sleep so tat i can wake up..

*ALARM** ring ring at 4am, then i wake up brush my teeth, n walk to my car.. so cold in the morning bcoz it rain n i'm so so so so cold!!! drive n find my way to changi airport early in the morning was quite a funny journey..haha.. end up i reach changi at 5am.. HAHA i went to terminal 3 then park the car,walk in n see the tv or arrival n departure but no jetstar.. then go back to the car n drive to terminal 1.. BINGO i found it but is only 5.20am..
i took a walk n go around to find food, (&*%$ early morning 5.20am the kopitiam is full house.. end up i just bought a cup of soya bean n pancake..n back to arrival hall to wait for my baby..
while waiting i sit down on a chair when i back is seated 2old man.. aiyo i cannot tahan feel like putting cotton in my ears, why?? this 2old man from their mouth a full sentences of 7words sure got 5words is @#$%*.. headache ar!! so i go off n walk around.. ***TENG TENG 6am jetstar landed,. then 6.25am (where is my baby)start to scare so i made a call to my baby.. Baby have u landed with my yawning sound n sleepy voice.. :P then baby ask me (where are u) n i answer (this place called Changi Airport)..baby so surprised n walk to me n hug me..

Fetch baby back home to pack his stuff n stay with me..but hungry so went to eat breakfast then only we sleep is already 9am..@@... wake up n went to recognize to practice my dance n dinner at nite..but baby n me went to Peninsula n baby bought me a nike boots shoes..i love it so much.

on 29th July.. is our paktoh day again.. morning we went to eat breakfast at PAstaMania.. my first time there to eat pasta..it was not bad the food there as my baby one to marinara n mine too oglio..XD after that we went jalan jalan n bongok around orchard road,far east *baby phat shoes**, then off we go to VIVO City.. baby bring me to sentosa n we watch 4D movie..is a very short movie but is a very good experience n baby laugh at me bcoz i scream when i watch bcoz it feel so real.. wauahha.. after tat we went to eat subway bcoz too hot n i scare of sun til 4.30pm n then we go play LUGE..
AFter luge, we walk around but was too hot so we decided to go back vivo to watch movie.. but there is no suitable time for the movie.. so we went off to bugis street Ilumo n Bugis Junction n look for the movie but too bad they don have it..is already 7plus then we just walk to Haji Lane for steamboat buffet..but before we reach the restaurant we stop at CArbon4 n i bought baby a LA shirt..:) i'm happy bcoz baby like the shirt..makan!!!!yummy yummy i eat like a monster today bcoz baby keep singing me the song Beautiful Monster by NEYO.. hahahaha.. after dinner we went to Plaza Singapura to watch Street Dance, but bcoz the parking is like maze so i go wrong way n so emo with baby.. end up tak jadi tengok wayang..
Emotion really not good, make me throw temper n mood swing.. end up baby n me find hotel everywhere is fully booked n end up stay at geylang.. but not bad the place.. the air cond cold like freezer..but the next day baby bring me watch STREET DANCE woohooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after watch we makan MCD (spicy nugget with curry sauce, honey something french fries, n my favourite Cinnamon Meltz)...then i head back to KL for class.. another new record today i was stuck in jam at singapore costum n today friday the traffic @@.. i left costum at 6.15pm then reach cheras studio at 9.15pm.. gila record!!!!

Always feel so hard to leave the place n say BYE BYE to baby.. but we have to :( ...
can't wait to see my baby again... miss him so much!!!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

July Phobia....

July 2010...I really lost sometimes donno what to do... Sometimes things happen in the way i never expected n i never ever think it will happen.. But it just happen and it hurts me so much.. I can't eat nor sleep well, and keep crying bcoz it really hurt me so much..i keep putting myself to a situation that is dem busy but when i get into my car my tears will just ... I keep blaming myself, telling maybe is just my fault!! but it come to a place where i think back i do feel that sometimes..

Sometimes i ask myself why do i want to put myself to a situation i always scared, worry.. It's because the trust is already gone or i just *phobia n scared*things will happen again.. Too bad is i got good memory and i remember words in letter better than words from mouth.. i feel like give up!!!!! but think back all the good memories n sweet time it just melt my heart to say "NO"... i should stay strong and fight till the end.. but everytime when i stay strong there will always another needle poke through me and put me back to the heartpain situation...

Keeping all the problem to myself is like keep all the bomb and bullet in my body.. that will explode anytime.. WHY?? i always like to keep it??? maybe is just that i always feel my problem is Me to solve it not to say it out to all my friend and share my problem n headache..Good n Bad?
i just wish i can go through everyday with smile n less stress..
human is complicated,weird creature.. hard to understand..

i hate july.. July is a bad month for me.. i started it with tears n :(

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Is July..

It been so long i never update my blog... i always abandoned my blog for months then update it.. no wonder people say my blog got nothing to read n is always left aside for spider to grow...XD

let see what i did for the past few month..SHOWDOWN 2010..hmm..Never know my SOul Krazy can be in Showdown 2010 Top 12 n be the only girls group that survive till Top 7.. it was amazing that we can be till that far althought we go throught a lots of up n down in the group while practicing even all the people that watch us give us negative comment that is just hurtful n put us all to dead end...
I sometimes think does i make a wrong decision or even think did i guide SK to a wrong direction.. but none of them blame me but do support me :) i"m glad n happy to have found them..So the journey of us continue althought we didn;t made to the final of SHowdown 2010.. but receive a few job.. the most krazy was to dance an opening act for Usher Concert with IZ...**WAHHHH** screaming bcoz its was fun n krazy with SK, Khai,Bobby, Jacob n WC..althought we wack but we really enjoy ourself on stage.. :) then we perform for final showdown..

After all this i get back to the dance floor and cha cha cha again before it really become duck feet.. XD After showdown really just back to dance classes n line dance.. buti just hope that me n also SK can go improve .. not to beat anyone but to be better and don't wack in our future show or competition..

Just wishes for the best to come...

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

THE END Jan 2010

A year started with full of fun and crazy stuff..
I form up a group name SOUL KRAZY that is 5girls member that dance like mad girls haha.. This is us at studio practice with the cam whoring session hehe.. why we at studio bcoz We join a competition that organise by 8TV name Showdown 2010 is on Jan 30th the audition n 31st is battle round..




On 30th is a public holiday for Selangor bcoz is Thaipusam, every where is jam n full of cars but i still got dance class to teach.. end up i rush to the class n back to Showdown N rush to class again.. it was a hot sunny sat n we burn our skin under the sun a perform our routine TIK TOK by kesha.. wah hot cool purple as we wearing purple on that day..we made it to the next round (that is the battle round).
once we finish i drive off to dance class again n finish at 6pm..POOOOWW i hop to my car n drive like mad driver to KLCCT to fetch my baby.. after pick my baby i drive to Sunway for practice battle round..wahh such a crazy day i have n tiring day..woolalala is over back home n rest..





TICK TOCK... SUN morning, i wake up n have a nice breakfast with my mummy n my baby.. after that i drive to damansara for class finish at 2.30pm,. once i'm done with class..pooo!! I AT 1u for SHOWDOWN battle...is such a tiring wait bcoz from 3pm we waited til 6pm only the battle start..it was a crazy battle for each group..for us SOUL KRAZY it was a wack performance n battle..might be the first time we together doing all this but we tell ourself that is a good experience n we must learn from that...loving the girls so much!!


WE TELL OURSELF THE NEXT ROUND WE WILL DO BETTER!!!!!



The most heartaching n bothering me is my baby got to wait n accompany me from 12pm til 10pm bcoz of my class n the showdown competition..Poor Thing bcoz he came on sat n sun back to Singapore n i have all this things happening..no time to accompany him also.. feeling so sorry but he didn't angry nor unhappy..that;s why i'm so glad n happy to be with him for understanding my dance life n his sacrifices for me doing all this..Thank YOu baby n I love you so much!!
CHEER!! LOVE !! HUGSS


Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Shopping :( ... T-Bowl :)

Celebrating new year is fun but day by day, week by week passed so fast is already 2weeks of January gone..and is only few more weeks to go before Chinese New Year..
SO is time for CNY shopping.. it was a Wednesday i went to Sungei wang shopping with my sister..Wahh after month of month of dancing n busying preparing dance routine..i loost my fashion clue..few hours of walking at Sungei wang shop going round n round in the end of the day i just spend Rm50.....haha what a shopping day i have..

But what is interesting is me n my sister when to have lunch at this Restaurant T-Bowl..
The place concept is Toilet Bowl haha... a loots of choices n the food taste nice also but we got to sit on toilet bowl n eat with all the toilet bowl shape plate, cup..haha cool stuff ..check out the place if u go to Sungei wang.. my sister with my bowl of tom yam seafood ramen..Good taste yummy..

my Ice Cream Dessert..serve with Sh*t shape..haha taste nice too..

If you were to go there,, just enjoy ur seat n the food.. Have a great makan day..

Friday, January 15, 2010

3,2,1 Happy New YeaR 2010

HMmm.. let me finish my year of 2009.. after christmas is a few more days to a Brand New Year
When i'm back to KL after christmas i just BUSY,Busy, busy.. dancing, choreographing, music-ing, n dancing...haha bcoz on the 30th is Joyclub Dance Studio party. I was in-charge to teach a kids dance n line dance workshop.. it was my 1st time doing all this..Haizz so tired bcoz the party start at noon and i teach the kids dance then line dance workshop n after all i rush to Setapak KL for class n back to the party..(it was so tiring till my legs is shivering n cramp).. after all this i only remember i haven't eat anything yet so i went to Mcd with cynthia n bF til late..haha after feeling full i just got to drive home..
Back home..(shuummm shower then pack my bag bcoz the next day got to wake up at 6.30 n leave the hse by 7am to take my bus to Singapore)..

Bus leave at 8am..n i start to feel excited to see my baby.. clock hit 9am they serve Subway Sandwich wow such a nice bus trip i have...woohoooo but a bit slow bcoz i reach Singapore at 1.45pm.. then i see my baby waiting me at Vivo City mall..
he pick me up then send me to check in my hotel..He off to Marina Bay bcoz he n his crew SFB is performing for Celebrate 2010..i went to Bugis Junction, Ilumo, Raffles City, Suntec, then marine Square..i shop n shop but only spent SG50 haha.. can say i stingy or just dowan to spend hehe..while i was shopping n walking around my phone will never stop ringing from time to time..my baby just worry that i will lost my way or bored alone..in the end he came out from his rehearsel place n look for me to eat dinner..



After all he went back in n i stick with the other SFB GFriends (amelia and nidya).. they get me a very nice spot to sit n watch the show..i enjoy the show n the fireworks in Singapore is so beautiful..no regret to go there on New Year...but too bad my baby not beside me to watch the firework bcoz he got to be on stage..haizz but still i'm happy..:p

After all this,,the crazy moment arrive..after all the fireworks n after party.. he bring me to meet up his frens at Bridge Clarke Quay..woohooo all are drinking n drinking in the end i also drink n drunk..haizz shynesss till the max...***

Then 1st Jan 2010..i wake up n vommit n dizzy til the max...but with my baby take care of me i'm consider fine by noon haha.. then we went out for lunch at Toa Payoh fork n spoon hehe.. After lunch we head to Vivo city n walk around before i head back to KL..So happen Bakerzin is at Vivo we went to have dessert again..woohooo but after all i still need to go back KL..SADNESSS!!!
tick tock tick tock 6pm he send me to my bus..we just can't let each other go by hugging so tight..haizz TONG!!! time's up i go to my bus then hand up wave n BYE BYE baby..hope to see u soon..
that's how i spend my new year n countdown to new year..
but 2010 is here..there will be more n more to do..i will be back soon..































Thursday, January 7, 2010

DECEMBER 09.....

DEC.. it started with tears n heart ache.. i quit Street WreckerZ n decided to Line Dance..
On the 1st week, my baby came to KL for DCOH final comp at Genting.. i was so excited to see him after so long.. but it was a bit tired bcoz i was rushing up to genting on fri to see him then back to KL for class on sat morning n went to Genting again on the evening to watch the comp..but all this is worth it.. Bcoz his crew SFB was crowd Champion for 2009 DCOH comp..i shed a tears n felt happy for him.. Then on the next day he follow me to KL n sad to say i met an accident when i on my way to class with him in the car..but everything was OK bcoz with him around just make me cool down..then we spend 1day together before he go back on the next day
The 3rd week.. he plan for a short holiday at KL.. he came on wed, i bring him to MOS for dancer nite, but it the plan wack bcoz there was a event running till late night .. end up we went Asia Cafe for supper..the next day he follow me to class n after all my class,we went to Cineleisure n walk at The Street n snap snap pic.. i took him to Desa Parkcity for steamboat n walk around at the park..althought was a bit wet bcoz rain.. then after dinner we went to Dessert Bar at hartamas..i was so happy baby enjoy the dessert so much n we order 4desserts...wuahaha
The last day we went shopping around at times square,1 utama n head back to Klang for dinner with my family..Sadness.. The road was wet bcoz of rain and we was late to airport that make him miss the flight.... He got to stay another day n go back with bus on the next day.. (long story no pic..Haiz can check it out on my Facebook)..problem..SORRY

CHRISTMAS WEEK...I have a special Christmas celebration in Singapore with my baby, I drive to SG n we have our lunch at Wisma Atria.. then at evening, he bring me out to walk around at orchard road n snap pic n as usual i went to see Shoess!!! but i didn;t buy..
.....TICK TOCK clock hit 7pm..we head to Heaven Loft Restaurant.. we have a very nice dinner n sweet time eating n chatting..After dinner , he bring me to Sky Garden it's so beautiful n high up ,funny is we got to snap our photo using timer..hehe...After meal..we walk to Cineleisure SG for a movie.. guess what it was so many ppl end up we just randomly bought a movie ticket name OLD DOG.. i was laughing like a mad lady inside the cinema...we actually count down our christmas in the cinema.. that's the best part..haha









After movie we went back n guess what he decorated the room with christmas tree with my present around.. i was so happy n speechless bcoz he give me not 1 not 2 but 3 christmas gift..***fainted**** i just want to say I LOVE KHAI...on the last day before i go back to KL.. we went to Bakerzin at Paragon.. we have the best dessert that is so sweet n nice (worth the money)yum yum.. LOVING IT.. i wan to tell everyone i have the most happy n joyful christmas with my baby..
PS***my gift = 1st- SK Jewellery Necklace
2nd-Adidas trefoil shoe (blue)
3rd- Adidas Bag

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

From Months to Months of 2009...

I'm back blogging n I will start from SEPT ..i start to have feeling of love,n i found someone in my life.. a special person that i love n care so much name Khai.. the hardest n difficult part in this relationship is we are 300++km away from each other.. It is hard bcoz the missing of each others really killing..


OCT he came down to KL dance comp at genting.. i meet him up n supported him..we have so little time together bcoz i got to work..but was cool bcoz at middle of the month i went to SG for Impak Maksima Musical.. i was there for 1 week woohoooo..Syokness bcoz i spend almost everynight going out with my baby.. We went to eat at Spice, then walk for 1hour 30mins from river valley back to Grand Park City Hall Hotel , then see him practice at CBD, eat steamboat middle of the nite.. but 1Week just pass so fast..
i'm going back to KL.:"(







NOV a month start with stress bcoz is Astro Battleground semi final rounds.. my crew struggle n pass round 1, 2 the last round was one day after my B'day, but still work hard B'day put aside n dance til nite.. but too bad competiter was too strong..we OUT.. but life goes on so do my dance careerback to classes n i miss him so much,, i plan a surprise trip n drive to Singapore on thurs.. was a bit lost when i reach when to a wrong road but i still manage to find my way to hotel.. guess what no room in this hotel that hotel..ARGHHH but lucky found a hotel 1 room left.. POOM pay n check in.. SAFE


Next, walk out to bus stop but no bus bcoz was too late,, hand up n wave haha..TAXI vroommmmmm reach n i call...dooooo,dooo he answer then i say how is practice?talk n talk suddenly.. i ask him to turn back aiyah he turn wrong side.. then i say look some where n someone with red blouse.. He was shock bcoz he actually plan the same things to surprise me.. lucky his plan was cancel if not imagine that he at KL i at SG..haha
The next day, i fetch him back to his house...WOW he got a cat name BUBU,, n then KRONG rain heavily.. hmm we are hungry but we don care,, with umbrella we walk n cross a few road n block .. "KA-Ching we reach Bukit Batok food stall..yum yum MAKAN TIME..BREAK


Cont... after tat we went to town n as usual i go far east n look at SHOESSS!!!
we walk n walk..DOOM we saw a couple Blazer Nike Shoe..
we just can say NO... we bought it..hehe..

The nite is here... he told me his fren GF birthday so we need to buy the cake to surprise the fren.. so we walk to bread talk shop n get a chocolate cake..Then we head to Youth Park bcoz he got practice with his crew.. so i sit n watch them n suddenly i can;t find him.. he went missing..
1 step, 2 step.. he hold the birthday cake with candles n walk out from some where i saw his frens is here so i also follow n sing birthday songs..In the end the cake was heading to me n the song was singing to me.. i was so touch n nearly cry but i hold my tears..
It was the best celebration althought it just simple is all the thought that count..

My Baby n Me.. With my Birthday cake

after that i drive home n reach at 5am..tiring but sweet n dead bcoz class was at 11am the next day..u don''t want to know how i teach the class....haha.. TO BE CONT for DEC..more pic on next post bcoz my pic in Lappie is missing..:((